Take care dear adeline... I will miss you..

Matching couple?? ^_^

Whatsapp playing a trick on us!

 We look so retarded in the photo!

I just reached home not long ago from yishun, suppose to go clubbing with Sam/Kelly/Elizabeth but end up it was cancel because Sam was having diahorrea and Kelly think that its too little people to have fun for clubbing. So end up, I managed to jio some people to play mahjong at yishun to kill my boredom away on a sat night. Lucky I got home 5-10mins early, if not I think I will be totally drenched by now because outside is raining heavily as I am typing this blog post.



Anyway, I think this blog post will be the final blog post that I am going to blog about you I guess? I shall force myself not to blog anything more about you in the future and I believe its gonna help both of us in the long run. Even my family do not know that we have already broke up, during my family dinner just now my mother was still saying she hasn’t seen you for quite some time already, but I just told her you are kind of busy etc, I think as time passes by they should be able to realized also anyway.

Here I go…



Thanks for giving me a chance to read both your tweets and blog once again, as I read through I can somehow feel the emotions that you are going through when you are typing the blog post, the sense of disappointment/anger/hatred can be strongly feel in the blog post. Well, I suppose that could serve as a great wake up call to me too.

In response to your blog post, did I ever force you to say sorry when you hit onto me? Did I ever get very angry with you when you didn’t say sorry after hitting onto me? As far as I remember, I don’t recall it and I would want to ask you something, how often such incidents happen throughout the few months we are together? 2 time? 3 time? I can say its very rare and to me this is only a small minor thing, I can’t believe that this could actually contribute as one of the factor for breakups!


As for how I meet her behind your back, throughout the few months I probably meet her like less then 5 times in total after you know about her existence? I think woman are really kind of funny, you wouldn’t want to know that I m meeting her yet you are very mad at me when I didn’t tell you I am going to meet her. I know that in the first place I shouldn’t even be meeting her in the first place, but after you and me got together, when I and her meet up we are just like normal friend meeting up for a meal or something, nothing much. Even you do meet up with your guy friends or even worse, play strip poker with them. Yes, you can say I m immature, I was really very mad when you told me you play strip poker with a group of guys. Its like WHAT THE FUCK are you playing such games with a group of guys, they can be the most trusting friends you ever have but seriously which boyfriend would allow their girlfriend to play that with a group of guys that the boyfriend don’t even know?!


I am sorry that I am not a very sensitive person, I couldn’t get your hints and in a way I think I totally don’t understand you well. We know that both of us jump into the relationship without much thinking and this could lead to many problems in the future, I do not understand you much and therefore a lot of times I can only make assumptions about what is going through your mind.

I remember on the day of the break up you ask me two questions, “do you know what is the reason of the break up?” and “do you know why I wouldn’t ask you to be my boyfriend?” Both questions lead to the same answer which I answer it is because I am attached and I had a “girlfriend”. So let me ask you something, is it anything wrong for me to think that once I broke up with her then you will come back to me and be together with me? Is there anything wrong for me think that way? So I don’t understand why do you feel I am a idiot for thinking that way.

Anyway, I am glad that you have finally admitted you have a crush on chia all along and that kind of explain everything also. Everything just happened too fast and I believe everything happened for a reason. Somehow, I can slowly see myself in you, in terms of character we might not be alike, but trust me I can say that we both suck at managing a relationship. Communications and effort work in a two way traffic in a relationship, when one party only put in 40% of efforts, definitely another party has to put the 60% to make the whole relationship balance up and slowly it will become both party put in a 50% effort together. I am sorry that my efforts only come right at the end of the relationship, is it too late? Yes I think it is too late already, but well…at least I did tried and I am still trying for the past one week or so. But nothing I do or say now is going to help the situation in any way. As much as I put my ego down to beg you and plead you, doing anything and everything I can to have you back, nothing seems to work at all.

Once again, I think reading your blog serves as a good wake up call to me, like seriously. All your emotions can be felt as you are typing the post and this strongly tells me that I should really move on and don’t interrupt in your life any more. I can tell you this, don’t need to think about having a friendship with me as I can tell you that is completely wasting your time, I had enough of you telling me everything is over and there is no more chances already. This time round I have COMPLETELY GET YOUR POINT LOUD AND CLEAR, so mark this down, I will stop asking you to give me any more chances because I do not want it anymore also. My feelings for you is dead, I will do anything I can to ensure that I do not hold back any feelings that I have for you from now on. I will force myself to be strong and move on.

Last but not least, even thou we might have quite a few quarrels and lots of unhappiness throughout the short relationship, I am still glad that I once had you as my girlfriend. We might not done many things together or spent a lot of quality time within the past few months, but I will never forget the things that you have done for me throughout the few months. So therefore I would like to thank you for everything that you have did for me, thank you for coming over my house to take care of me when I am sick, thank you for helping me to get Ipod/Itouch to use for the past few months, thank you for buying perfume for me when you barely know me well, thank you for lending me money on my hard times, thank you for folding my clothes neatly everytime when you come over and finally I would like thank you that you did love me before.

  Good morning!

 I think the 2nd photo look nicer!

Our last photo together!

After saying thank you, I also would like to apologize for several things also. I am sorry for hurting you throughout the few months, sorry for neglected your feelings, sorry that I sometime just throw temper at you when I am late or feeling down, sorry that I always give you empty promises, sorry for not understanding you well enough and lastly I am really sorry for everything that I did that cause you to be upset or angry. Throughout the relationship, it is never my intentions to hurt you in anyway and I really blame myself at times when I know you are upset, my heart could feel the sadness too. Sorry girl, I am really sorry for everything.


So…as I was saying this will be my last blog posting that I going to blog about you, next four days is my off days and I am unsure how am I going to spent it usefully. But no matter what, everything about us is already over and I m glad for you that you have finally found someone that will love you for who you are, hope you can have a smooth relationship with him. Take care my dear Adeline, I will miss you.


P.S: The day that I start saying I love you in the relationship, is the day that I confirmed my feelings that I really love you and really happy to have you as my girlfriend.

 

 I never regret knowing you on this day...

This is my favourite photo of us, we both look so great!

Thanks for being part of my life.