Care as a friend? hmm

 So studio effect!

My tongue is long! haha!

Shall type out one blog post before I head out later! Hmm.. Tomorrow is my off day, since just now I have been thinking how can I make my tomorrow a fruitful day for me so that I don’t end up wasting another off day away


Dear girl, I appreciate that you care for me and worry for me as a friend, but do you know that it takes me longer to get out of it. Every time when I receive your message, my heart felt something, even thou the conversation might not be pleasant but somehow or rather I just feel something when I received your message. The few months together I think it is a dream, I might not have a fantastic memory but I do remember sweet things that you do for me. Still remember the first time you sent me a long message? I actually copy down and save the message in my phone. It sound funny but ya…I love it when my gf do sweet things to me, it might be small little thing but it never fail to brighten up my days. If only a relationship is that simple. When I read the message over and over again, how I wish I could go back to April and rewrite our relationship stories again. Haiz…


**warning, long msg ahead**

Hi dear, its already e month of april:) im glad and happy for who i am now. Look how far we've come. Itve been a few months, but it felt like it was just yesterday tt ive met you.

Miserable march is finally over, glad that it ended mirthfully. More months to come, more years to live. How i wish everyday could be like yesterday(sleep, eat, shit, sleep eat shit) But everyday is a brand new day:) Full of suprises and joy awaits to come into our lives.
To be honest, Every now and then, i would still feel very insecure. All these nights i sleep with worry. Worry that i might lose you one day. Worry that you're gone when im awake the next day.
I know you wont want me to feel this way. And i also know that, my friends wouldn't want me to be with someone who is attached. But I put myself into thoughts. Is it all worth it? Yes i said. Why? Don't really know. Still unsure, but you see, I'm still here. Im not gone yet. Many at times i put myself in situations to force myself to make a decision, to leave or stay. I said, i would leave, i would leave, yes i would leave!!! However, i cant seem to do it. I don't want to. But the pain is killing me slowly, deeply. I have you with me, but i always wonder if your heart is with me too? Or elsewhere. I really, really, feel insecure...
I have also thought. You have the ability to have 2 girlfriends. Why cant i have 2 boyfriends? I thought and thought about it. Ha, gave myself a slap and said NO! What is my point of having another guy? To make you jealous? NO, this is not the way it works. I will hurt myself even more.
A great relationship is made up of two good forgivers they say. I have to forgive you, of your past. I have to let it go. Ignore the past. Live the future.

It is really... really tiring... But these few days that we spent together, tells me that you really really love me.. Questions you ask, start to make me feel better... I love how you care when you ask me if "Amk/Bishan would be a better location"... I love how you care for my transport.. I love how you would send me home despite me living 25.8km away frm u.. I love how you hug me to sleep.. I love how you say goodnight darling and give me a goodnight kiss.. I love how you would make decisions (on what to eat :p)... Theres so much more to say, i bet you know what would i wanna say. Ahh, getting a lil long here.

Dear, i believe that we will be happy happy everyday!!!!!!!! ^_^ (sorry i dont know how to end ~_~) There is so much more to say.. But.. HELLO GOOD MORNING DEAR, I AM ALL GEARED UP AND READY FOR MY ATTACHMENT!!! AND HELLOO HAVE A HAPPY NICE DAY!!