Act blur live longer!

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Just finish bathing after coming back from work about 1hour ago? Shall blog one post before I go to sleep.
Had a long day today, woke up this morning at 7am and went to do an event at Hillgrove Sec for a 4hour program. It feels good to see some of my friends at the event and was even happier when one of them told me that she is planning to organize an ubin outing soon for catch up session. I think that is a great idea as normally when I do event for Aikon, the facilitator usually only see each other for few hours only, it feel more like just normal colleagues then friends, therefore I think if there is a outing we can get to know each other better and could even become good friends in future.
So after my event I went to have lunch alone at woodlands as the rest of the facilitators have to go another school for another event whereas I got about 4hours free time to myself. So after lunch I went back home to nap for 2hour before I start my night shift at Mac. Comparing to past few days of work I think today work is not so tiring, still manageable as it is just like any other normal Friday crowd with the consistent sales coming in.
But well…as I work and work and work, somehow or rather I will just automatically thinking about you. Through facebook I am aware that today is actually chia birthday, I should be wishing him a happy birthday but somehow I just can’t bring myself to do that. The situation now is very different and if I was to do that, I am like throwing my ego away and making friend with my love rival. I admit that I am a very egoistic person, especially when it comes to relationship my ego become even bigger, maybe its just me and my character, some might say I am childish that I can’t take it like a man and let go like a man. But to me, I am just standing by my rights and trying to protect a person that I love. To me, my girlfriend is definitely more important then my friends and that is why I don’t really have a lot of close friends because most of the time my close friends are actually my girlfriend.
As a ex boyfriend of you, I keep thinking how are you celebrating chia birthday today. Will there be any surprises that you have nicely planned up for him? Or maybe his birthday is a good opportunity that you two will get together officially. All these things been running through my mind, I am unsure and confused about whether should I know the details or should I live with the mentality of “act blur live longer”. In the beginning when you first break up with me, at least I still have Kelada with me and I easily read your tweet about how are you. Right now I have return everything to you, news about you can only get it through facebook or maybe through people that I know. Definitely not everything that I read or hear could be accurate, because I don’t get it directly from you and most of it I can only make assumptions. Yes, making assumptions, something that you don’t like me doing but well…I don’t really have any other choice right…
Today is Friday night and it is chia birthday, I been thinking how you will spent the night tonight. Are you going to stayover at his house? Is he going to stayover at your house? Or is there anything special that is going to happen? Hmm…as time pass by many questions just keep popping out of nowhere. Oh well… I will only get my answers in time to come I guess?
Hmm…anyway tomorrow I will be going clubbing. Yes, my official clubbing since last year? Its been quite a long while since I last club and hopefully it will turn out to be a good one. Hasn’t really drank alcohol for quite some time and gotta pray that I won’t have a hangover after tomorrow night clubbing. I just want to have fun and wish nothing bad comes along.
P.S: Nothing feel any sweeter when you came over to take care of me when I was sick, pamper me like a little child and help me to get water/medicine etc, I feel loved. Totally.