Alright, this post suppose to blog before 2009 ended but being the Lazy me, I only type the entry till half way on the New Year Eve and here I am to continue on the entry.... :) *I am still going to post this entry on the date of 31/12/2009!
Firstly I want to say thank you to everyone that show concern for me for the past few weeks, really appreciate it alot alot. Too many things happen to me and my gf for the past few weeks, too much ups and downs to mention over here. But at the same time it also let me realize that I still got a bunch of friends that are always here for me, or even my campers is always here for me. Thanx everyone, ah huat appreciate it.
hmmm..last year I spent my new year eve countdown at Rendall house together with Cyril. Leisha, Hor Heh, Baoyun and Xiao Wei. That year the countdown was quite fun, we drank and also play different kind of board games at Rendall house thanks to the contributions of Cyril's friend. I bet all of us still remember the shouting of the Taboo game at Rendall house, we are so noisy until Rendall neighbour keep coming over to ask us lower our voice. haha... We also get to see the firework right infront of Rendall house, no need to squeeze here and there with strangers from outside or what, how cool can that be?!
This year the eve countdown was slightly different, I am suppose to spent it with my gf actually.. But haiz..sadly to say my gf fall sick on the eve itself, she was down with fever, flu and ulcer. I book out around 5pm, went to Sun Plaza to buy ingredients then went home to cook dinner for her and my family. My initial plan of spending with my gf was so much different, the day before I went to bought 2 GV goldclass tickets that is screening Avatar at 930pm on New year eve. Because I was thinking since both I n my gf has never watch a movie in GV goldclass before, so I thought of making the new year eve a little different for both of us, end up who knows so unfortunately she was down with fever etc and there goes the movie tickets....haiz..
Hmm...any way then around night 10plus her father come my house pick her and she went home already. So I spent my new year eve countdown alone at home in my room, watching firework on the TV and also listening to firework sound coming from JB.. ZzZzz.. (-_-)
So many incidents build up to welcome a brand new year, I really don't know what to say.. Hopefully everything will slowly turn out fine and I hope my gf will recover soon as I really dont wish to see her being so sick also.
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Thursday, December 31, 2009
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Sleepless night...Is there really a bastard in me?
This post is going to be rather dragging and non-related to people who are not close to me, skip it if you dont feel like reading it.
I just had a very big quarrel with my gf and the topic of the quarrel has carried on ever since last month, then yesterday again the issue was raised and once again we quarrel until quite badly, now I n her is already sorta "break up". Haiz.. Is this ending that I bring myself into? I really do not know.
Perhaps it is just me and my character, the way I was brought up and the journey that I walk through make me who I are today, which I do not know whether it has benefit me or done more harm to me. People who know me well enough will know that actually I am a very outgoing and open minded person, be it the way I do things or the way I treat people. Even though I am attached, I always tell people that the last thing I want a friend to do is to distance himself or herself away from me just because I am attached. So everytime even though I am attached I still appear as though I am single and be close to many people, and sometime this actually backfire badly. I will slowly fall into a trap when the person actually show more affection to me then my gf. But most of the time, I will wake up eventually before anything really happen and someone get super hurt. Ever since my secondary school life, I will always have people that label me as being a flirt, a fishermen or a player. All those names has followed me ever since I was sec 4, is it because I am really such a person? Or is just because other people is unable to accept the thinking that I had and do not understand me well enough.
To me, a gf will definitely be much more important then a friend because a gf is someone that is very important to me in my life. even though friends is also important to me but somehow it is just at a different level between gf and friends. Its okie if my friend do not understand me, but I feel hurt when my own gf do not understand me well enough and I think I always high expectation from my gf in terms of understanding me, thats why I seldom have a gf that really last for very long. However, be it the friend is close to me or not close to me at all, I do not like it when my gf scold and insult my friend infront of me, same thing like I do not like my friend insult or scold my gf infront of me. It is just my way of showing mutual respect for both parties, I believe many of you can understand how does it feel when you are stucked in between friends and bf/gf. It is a damn sucky feeling when you just want to be a peacemaker between the two parties. It happen before in many of my relationships that I can easily name a few, Eunice and Chu ling, Yuanshan and Cherrie, Chenyin and Ngo Laam. No matter how NEUTRAL I am, one of the party will always say that I am siding the other side and the other side will also say the same thing to me. So I end up sandwiched between two parties and seriously is it too much or too unreasonable of me when I ask one party to stop scolding another party infront of me? I don't care whether you going to scold another person or what, what I ask for is just please don't do it infront of me cause I really do not know how to react to it.
I always act as a counsellor to many of my friends or campers that have relationship problems, being a big brother/sister/daddy/mummy to many of them by offering advice, a shoulder for them to lean on and a listening ears for their problems. But when it come to myself, I always find myself facing alot of problems in my own relationship, unable to manage it well for a long period of time. Sometime I also do not know what I really look for in a relationship, is it because I just cant settle down? I think that I am not good enough for my gf? Or I haven't found a correct person that can convinced me that its really the time for me settle down now. There can be hundred and one reasons around, but I really do not know which is the best reason that best describe me.
Last year, I found a girl that I really wanted to settle down with, someone that I can building a future together with. But end up what I get is being hurt badly and pick up far too many learning points from that relationship. I had never ever gone so crazy for a relationship before in my life, and the first time I put in so much effort into a relationship is the one that hurt me the most. Its not easy to pick myself up from that failed relationship, I been through loads of shit to get over it, really. After that failed relationship, I become a reserved person and proceed to all the new relationships with caution, preparing myself for the worst that could happen. This might seem unfair to my gf, but I really got no choice but proceed with caution after being hurt so badly before.
As for my "current gf", I and her also been through quite alot of difficulties then got together. Alot of people think that I and her wont last long because our thinking is very different, way much different from one another. She was still attached when I know her at the beginning of the year and I was sorta "attached" too. Thinking back, I could really never thank her enough for walking through the tough journey with me when I was facing the biggest shit of my life in the beginning of the year. She trusted me again and again, willing to solve my problems with me and help me with alot of dificulties. Even though our character is very much different from one another, we still tried building on a relationship together. It is really not easy with the kind of friends we each have and the different environment that we grow up from. Initially everything was fine, sometime we will have little argument here and there but it was never too serious, until last month when everything go haywire. I do not know where is the relationship is heading to and right now alot of things is running through my mind, I guess I really need time to sort it out.
*CY: I just open and watch the video that I made for you for your 21st birthday, thinking back few months ago and looking at where we at now, its way too much difference isnt it? When is the last time we really share the joy we had like before, the smile that we used to see on each other face? The patience, tolerance and able to compromise for one another? It just feel so different now, really...
I just had a very big quarrel with my gf and the topic of the quarrel has carried on ever since last month, then yesterday again the issue was raised and once again we quarrel until quite badly, now I n her is already sorta "break up". Haiz.. Is this ending that I bring myself into? I really do not know.
Perhaps it is just me and my character, the way I was brought up and the journey that I walk through make me who I are today, which I do not know whether it has benefit me or done more harm to me. People who know me well enough will know that actually I am a very outgoing and open minded person, be it the way I do things or the way I treat people. Even though I am attached, I always tell people that the last thing I want a friend to do is to distance himself or herself away from me just because I am attached. So everytime even though I am attached I still appear as though I am single and be close to many people, and sometime this actually backfire badly. I will slowly fall into a trap when the person actually show more affection to me then my gf. But most of the time, I will wake up eventually before anything really happen and someone get super hurt. Ever since my secondary school life, I will always have people that label me as being a flirt, a fishermen or a player. All those names has followed me ever since I was sec 4, is it because I am really such a person? Or is just because other people is unable to accept the thinking that I had and do not understand me well enough.
To me, a gf will definitely be much more important then a friend because a gf is someone that is very important to me in my life. even though friends is also important to me but somehow it is just at a different level between gf and friends. Its okie if my friend do not understand me, but I feel hurt when my own gf do not understand me well enough and I think I always high expectation from my gf in terms of understanding me, thats why I seldom have a gf that really last for very long. However, be it the friend is close to me or not close to me at all, I do not like it when my gf scold and insult my friend infront of me, same thing like I do not like my friend insult or scold my gf infront of me. It is just my way of showing mutual respect for both parties, I believe many of you can understand how does it feel when you are stucked in between friends and bf/gf. It is a damn sucky feeling when you just want to be a peacemaker between the two parties. It happen before in many of my relationships that I can easily name a few, Eunice and Chu ling, Yuanshan and Cherrie, Chenyin and Ngo Laam. No matter how NEUTRAL I am, one of the party will always say that I am siding the other side and the other side will also say the same thing to me. So I end up sandwiched between two parties and seriously is it too much or too unreasonable of me when I ask one party to stop scolding another party infront of me? I don't care whether you going to scold another person or what, what I ask for is just please don't do it infront of me cause I really do not know how to react to it.
I always act as a counsellor to many of my friends or campers that have relationship problems, being a big brother/sister/daddy/mummy to many of them by offering advice, a shoulder for them to lean on and a listening ears for their problems. But when it come to myself, I always find myself facing alot of problems in my own relationship, unable to manage it well for a long period of time. Sometime I also do not know what I really look for in a relationship, is it because I just cant settle down? I think that I am not good enough for my gf? Or I haven't found a correct person that can convinced me that its really the time for me settle down now. There can be hundred and one reasons around, but I really do not know which is the best reason that best describe me.
Last year, I found a girl that I really wanted to settle down with, someone that I can building a future together with. But end up what I get is being hurt badly and pick up far too many learning points from that relationship. I had never ever gone so crazy for a relationship before in my life, and the first time I put in so much effort into a relationship is the one that hurt me the most. Its not easy to pick myself up from that failed relationship, I been through loads of shit to get over it, really. After that failed relationship, I become a reserved person and proceed to all the new relationships with caution, preparing myself for the worst that could happen. This might seem unfair to my gf, but I really got no choice but proceed with caution after being hurt so badly before.
As for my "current gf", I and her also been through quite alot of difficulties then got together. Alot of people think that I and her wont last long because our thinking is very different, way much different from one another. She was still attached when I know her at the beginning of the year and I was sorta "attached" too. Thinking back, I could really never thank her enough for walking through the tough journey with me when I was facing the biggest shit of my life in the beginning of the year. She trusted me again and again, willing to solve my problems with me and help me with alot of dificulties. Even though our character is very much different from one another, we still tried building on a relationship together. It is really not easy with the kind of friends we each have and the different environment that we grow up from. Initially everything was fine, sometime we will have little argument here and there but it was never too serious, until last month when everything go haywire. I do not know where is the relationship is heading to and right now alot of things is running through my mind, I guess I really need time to sort it out.
*CY: I just open and watch the video that I made for you for your 21st birthday, thinking back few months ago and looking at where we at now, its way too much difference isnt it? When is the last time we really share the joy we had like before, the smile that we used to see on each other face? The patience, tolerance and able to compromise for one another? It just feel so different now, really...
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Birthday
This is going to be a short update before I return back to camp later. Recently alot of my friends is having their birthday celebration in the month of November and December. So far I had went for one and also missed out one. I went for Xiaowei chalet that was held at Aranda country club, the last time I went there I think it was during my primary school days, that show how long the club has exist ar.. haha..
Xiao wei Chalet was quite fun, again saw alot of instructors that is from my batch and also the batch slightly later then me, I will always remember the memories that all of us shared doing camps together, all the minor and major issues that occured during different camps. It was quite a pity that I gotta rush off that night as I got a overnight mahjong session waiting for me and I seriously regret going for that mahjong session, I lost freaking lot again. I only can blamed myself for not decisive and strong minded enough to skip the mahjong session that day. Oh well..I guess partly also lately for the past few months, I had been on the losing streak for mahjong. Keep losing non-stop and even if win, the winnings is only peanuts to the amount that I lost, I guess I really to do something to have a change of luck, any one can help me?
*Samantha, sorry that I unable to attend your chalet. That day I break camp then really quite tired, thus unable to make it for your chalet. So sorry for it.
Xiao wei Chalet was quite fun, again saw alot of instructors that is from my batch and also the batch slightly later then me, I will always remember the memories that all of us shared doing camps together, all the minor and major issues that occured during different camps. It was quite a pity that I gotta rush off that night as I got a overnight mahjong session waiting for me and I seriously regret going for that mahjong session, I lost freaking lot again. I only can blamed myself for not decisive and strong minded enough to skip the mahjong session that day. Oh well..I guess partly also lately for the past few months, I had been on the losing streak for mahjong. Keep losing non-stop and even if win, the winnings is only peanuts to the amount that I lost, I guess I really to do something to have a change of luck, any one can help me?
*Samantha, sorry that I unable to attend your chalet. That day I break camp then really quite tired, thus unable to make it for your chalet. So sorry for it.
Sunday, November 15, 2009
i m back, for good or for bad?!
Hello people! I am here to make a quick short update to my blog before I going for my B2B camp this week with NUS High and IJC. Hopefully this will be a fun fun week before I finally return back to my HELL ground again. :( Alot of things happen to me in the past few week or I should say I had kept myself damn packed for the past few weeks.
- Help Carolyn to do a 4D3N camp at Pulau Ubin. The beginning was quite bad and everyone was complaining about the camp, but luckily in the end everyone enjoyed and I bet it leave a ever lasting memories in their heart!
- Help Potato with his first camp of the year, it has been a long long time since I last work with this group of instructors. The feeling is great even thou there are some hiccups in the camp, hope potato has solve it by now.
- Help Carolyn to do a 4D3N camp at Pulau Ubin. The beginning was quite bad and everyone was complaining about the camp, but luckily in the end everyone enjoyed and I bet it leave a ever lasting memories in their heart!
- Help Potato with his first camp of the year, it has been a long long time since I last work with this group of instructors. The feeling is great even thou there are some hiccups in the camp, hope potato has solve it by now.
- Do camp for Choa Chu Kang Sec 2, its the second time I am taking this school and I must say this school the student is really quite high by nature, last year and this year both equally high! I am glad to see that my class really bonded quite well together, they cried for each other during campfire because they know they going to be separate class the following year. I feel sad for them also but well...Life is this, only after separation and obstacles, people then will realize the importance of friendship and learn to cherish it.
- Still got camp for few other school like St Hilda's Pri and Nan Chiau Pri which I shall not go into details before my blog start to become boring...
Anyway, had a very big quarrel for with my gf for the past one week due to some reasons.. But thank god everything has been solved now and hopefully it will be peaceful from now onwards. Its hurtful and tiring to each other in this manner because it is spoiling our r/s, something that both of us do not want it to happen ya.. Oh ya, my gf lost her wallet ytd at yishun and we only realize it after a few hours! Went to make a police report for the lost wallet and I can tell you, I NOW FINALLY UNDERSTAND WHY MY FATHER DO NOT LIKE POLICE AT ALL!! The way they handle things is like so reluctantly and willing to do it, seriously don't understand why. Anyway, lucky my gf is lost her wallet at Northpoint Bata, the staff called her today and asked her to go collect her wallet.
Thats all I guess? Will update again when I m back from my B2B camp. Before I end this post, I just want to say its kinda sad that one by one everyone is leaving Camp HA. Andrew left last year, Jeremy tang and Eunice is going to leave like less then three weeks time? I can't imagine how Camp HA is going to survive when Jeremy and Eunice left the company, with the peak season coming up, can the company really cope with it? Sigh...
Sunday, September 20, 2009
ALOHA! here is more and more photos.. hehe...
*alot of unglam photos btw..
Gay laugh?
a bloody hand!
Me and Keathwee
Me and my gf!!
My ear is injured.. -_-
erm...-_-
Me and krystle
Sec Sch friends..
*alot of unglam photos btw..
Gay laugh?
a bloody hand!
Me and Keathwee
Me and my gf!!
My ear is injured.. -_-
erm...-_-
Me and krystle
Sec Sch friends..Saturday, September 19, 2009
YEA!!! Finally can upload some new photos to my blog! has been having problems with uploading since few weeks back.. These are some of the photos, I got like TONS OF IT haven't uploaded.. Stay tuned and wait for more to come!
Saturday, September 12, 2009
Ta daah!!
I m finally back to blogging again! After procrastinate for like near two months and layers of dust forming on my blog, I decided to dedicate this post to all my loved ones, friends and anyone that has help me for the past two month especially for my chalet!
Had a blast for my birthday chalet last month, done many crazy things I should say.. hmm...initial planning stage of chalet was quite bad due to lack of communications and patience, then alot of problems start to surface, I even nearly wanted to cancel off the chalet. But well..eventually most of the problems of was solved at the chalet itself and everything went smoothly without much hiccups.. I will try to upload loads of photo taken at the chalet soon as I do not know what is wrong with my laptop, can't upload photos to blogger.. argh!
Add on to my birthday chalet, I and dear had a wonderful dinner buffet last month at Marina Square, a restaurant called Azabo Sabo I think? Not counting the usual steamboat meal, I think thats the first time I ate a normal buffet with dear and somemore its only two of us?! haha.. Really ate till damn bloated over there, the food is not too expensive and actually quite a good place to eat with a group of friends.. hmm..alright, I shall stop here at the moment, will update soon again with all the photos ya.. :)
Had a blast for my birthday chalet last month, done many crazy things I should say.. hmm...initial planning stage of chalet was quite bad due to lack of communications and patience, then alot of problems start to surface, I even nearly wanted to cancel off the chalet. But well..eventually most of the problems of was solved at the chalet itself and everything went smoothly without much hiccups.. I will try to upload loads of photo taken at the chalet soon as I do not know what is wrong with my laptop, can't upload photos to blogger.. argh!
Add on to my birthday chalet, I and dear had a wonderful dinner buffet last month at Marina Square, a restaurant called Azabo Sabo I think? Not counting the usual steamboat meal, I think thats the first time I ate a normal buffet with dear and somemore its only two of us?! haha.. Really ate till damn bloated over there, the food is not too expensive and actually quite a good place to eat with a group of friends.. hmm..alright, I shall stop here at the moment, will update soon again with all the photos ya.. :)
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Back again!
I am finally back to blogging again! *after leaving it alone for like more then one month I think*
Been back into the army for more then one month plus already. Currently I am already officially down pest to C9L2 but I am still staying within my combat unit at the moment. Hopefully I am able to get post out as soon as possible, don't really like the life of doing admin work and sai keng everyday in the company, completely waste of time!
Going to have a chalet in three weeks time at Costa Sand pasir, its been sometime sinc I last had a big celebration for my birthday. The last time I had a big celebration was having BBQ at east cost park 3 years ago I think? That birthday BBQ unknowingly matchmake 3 couples together after that, haha.. *you guys know who you are!*
I am quite excited for the upcoming birthday chalet and I must thank zhong wen and my gf, if not I wouldnt be able to have this birthday chalet also. Thou its abit like weird to have a big celebration for a 22nd birthday, but nevertheless since I do not have a proper celebration last year, I am so gonna make it big for this year. So hopefully most of the people that I invited is able to make it for the chalet as I have no idea when will it be the next time I got such a big birthday celebration again. Of course with a birthday celebration, I hope I will be able to get all the things I want for the birthday!
*Birthday Wishlist
- A new red sneakers!
- Levi's black jeans
- Hugo Boss perfume (Energize)
- A digital camera
- Being able to post out from my stupid camp
- Clear up all my debts
Been back into the army for more then one month plus already. Currently I am already officially down pest to C9L2 but I am still staying within my combat unit at the moment. Hopefully I am able to get post out as soon as possible, don't really like the life of doing admin work and sai keng everyday in the company, completely waste of time!
Going to have a chalet in three weeks time at Costa Sand pasir, its been sometime sinc I last had a big celebration for my birthday. The last time I had a big celebration was having BBQ at east cost park 3 years ago I think? That birthday BBQ unknowingly matchmake 3 couples together after that, haha.. *you guys know who you are!*
I am quite excited for the upcoming birthday chalet and I must thank zhong wen and my gf, if not I wouldnt be able to have this birthday chalet also. Thou its abit like weird to have a big celebration for a 22nd birthday, but nevertheless since I do not have a proper celebration last year, I am so gonna make it big for this year. So hopefully most of the people that I invited is able to make it for the chalet as I have no idea when will it be the next time I got such a big birthday celebration again. Of course with a birthday celebration, I hope I will be able to get all the things I want for the birthday!
*Birthday Wishlist
- A new red sneakers!
- Levi's black jeans
- Hugo Boss perfume (Energize)
- A digital camera
- Being able to post out from my stupid camp
- Clear up all my debts
Saturday, May 9, 2009
I am back to blogging!
Hello BLOGSPOT!
Its been ages since I last blog, can link back to about 3 to 4 years ago I think? Actually wanted to start blogging at the end of last year when my life is going through a tremendous changes, but I always did not carry out in the end as I am really too lazy and like to procrastinate alot. Then since I am facing insomnia right at the moment, I might as well just kickstart having a blog again.
Actually my insomnia started since few weeks back, every night before I sleep random thoughts just come to me to prevent me from sleeping peacefully. Currently I am having debts, and its really loads and loads of debts. It all started at the end of last year when my life is going really really down after ys broke off with me. I start to indulge in drinking, soccer betting and spending money aimlessly. Slowly whatever income that I earn last year from doing camps is depleted and more problems start to come. Family got money problems, I met with a motor accident and end up gotta scrapped my bike without taking any money back.
Soon I start to borrow money from friends to pay off the bills, expenses and family debts. And now, I find myself with loads of debts that I ownself do not know how am I going to clear it, I cant even face alot of my friends now, seriously. There is alot of my friend talking behind me at the moment, saying I owe money for so long and never return etc, haiz.. The problem is not I don't want to return, I just dont know where to find the money to return them at all. My monthly pay is only merely $500? Everytime when I manage to clear a debt from one friend, another friend will start to chase me for money. The cycle just go none-stop till I can really clear all the debts which can take like one year or even two year?
I must admit its my fault for making empty promises to them like I will return within a period of time and I exceed that period like way too over, so I dont blame them keep asking me for the money. And thats the reason why I been having insomnia for the past few weeks, every night keep thinking about the money problem till I cant sleep at all, only manage to fall aslp in the morning when my brain juice is really being squeezed out totally.
At the moment, I just hope I can come across a person that will be nice enough to loan me a large sum of money to let me clear all my debts straight away and I can pay that person bit by bit every month. It will be much better for me to get chased down by different friend every day, really. If I can across such a person, I really don't mind quit all my bad habbits like clubbing, drinking and gambling all these, it has cause me enough troubles for many years and the money i spent on it is already cant calculate anymore.
HELP!!!!!!!!
Its been ages since I last blog, can link back to about 3 to 4 years ago I think? Actually wanted to start blogging at the end of last year when my life is going through a tremendous changes, but I always did not carry out in the end as I am really too lazy and like to procrastinate alot. Then since I am facing insomnia right at the moment, I might as well just kickstart having a blog again.
Actually my insomnia started since few weeks back, every night before I sleep random thoughts just come to me to prevent me from sleeping peacefully. Currently I am having debts, and its really loads and loads of debts. It all started at the end of last year when my life is going really really down after ys broke off with me. I start to indulge in drinking, soccer betting and spending money aimlessly. Slowly whatever income that I earn last year from doing camps is depleted and more problems start to come. Family got money problems, I met with a motor accident and end up gotta scrapped my bike without taking any money back.
Soon I start to borrow money from friends to pay off the bills, expenses and family debts. And now, I find myself with loads of debts that I ownself do not know how am I going to clear it, I cant even face alot of my friends now, seriously. There is alot of my friend talking behind me at the moment, saying I owe money for so long and never return etc, haiz.. The problem is not I don't want to return, I just dont know where to find the money to return them at all. My monthly pay is only merely $500? Everytime when I manage to clear a debt from one friend, another friend will start to chase me for money. The cycle just go none-stop till I can really clear all the debts which can take like one year or even two year?
I must admit its my fault for making empty promises to them like I will return within a period of time and I exceed that period like way too over, so I dont blame them keep asking me for the money. And thats the reason why I been having insomnia for the past few weeks, every night keep thinking about the money problem till I cant sleep at all, only manage to fall aslp in the morning when my brain juice is really being squeezed out totally.
At the moment, I just hope I can come across a person that will be nice enough to loan me a large sum of money to let me clear all my debts straight away and I can pay that person bit by bit every month. It will be much better for me to get chased down by different friend every day, really. If I can across such a person, I really don't mind quit all my bad habbits like clubbing, drinking and gambling all these, it has cause me enough troubles for many years and the money i spent on it is already cant calculate anymore.
HELP!!!!!!!!
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Cold Chilling Sunday
Weather has been really bad recently.. Rain, sunny, rain, sunny.. Guess my mood every weekend is just like the weather too ---> up, down, up, down.. My "project has been working on it ever since late September, till now so much still remain incomplete. The motivation for the project just come and go, somehow weird feeling but ya, hopefully it can be done before Christmas.
Many times when we contact friend that hasnt seen each other for long, we will always say something like catch up soon, maybe for a movie or for meal.. But when come to every weekend, the end results is always very big difference, I really wonder why...
This coming few weeks, weekend should be having the same kind of mentality I guess? Phy is having her, instructors are mostly busy with their respective stuff, mahjong also like not that interesting anymore. Am I able to take this for long?
Many times when we contact friend that hasnt seen each other for long, we will always say something like catch up soon, maybe for a movie or for meal.. But when come to every weekend, the end results is always very big difference, I really wonder why...
This coming few weeks, weekend should be having the same kind of mentality I guess? Phy is having her, instructors are mostly busy with their respective stuff, mahjong also like not that interesting anymore. Am I able to take this for long?
Monday, February 25, 2008
Its been sometime since I last blog, wanted to post a new blog post before my operation but once again my laptop died on me, thus nowusing my brother's laptop to update my blog.
Just came back from my operation at NUH yesterday and yes! I am officially handicapped now.. Ah lam or ah huat can not longer run or walk normally for the next two to six month, haiz.. Till now I still do not know whether I make the correct decision of going for my operation at this period of time, being a burden to everyone around me, my friend, my family and my loved one.
When I was in hospital, I think about alot of things, people that really care for me and people that don't really give a shit about me. Alot of my friends will still at least sms, sent wishes all these before and after my operation, checking on how am I etc.. How bout you? I had stop msging you for one or so until last sunday I message you for inform you the dinner that I organized before my operation. Perhaps you are too attached to him that whatever things that happen to me now doesnt concern you at all. Is that what you mean by still able to remain as friend even after beak up? I believe if it was a outside friend of yours that is going for operation soon, you will at least sent some wishes to him or her for the operation.
Today Minsi come acc for the whole day, then Ren Xiaowei and Jer visited me today too. All of them bought me food and snacks, I feel so touched and really appreciate it. Perhaps like what everyone say, this is just a small operation for me as I am still alive and kicking, but simple operation like this can really make me feel who are the true friends, loved ones and people who really care about me. Thank you people. I will try my best to lead a new life, really trying.
Just came back from my operation at NUH yesterday and yes! I am officially handicapped now.. Ah lam or ah huat can not longer run or walk normally for the next two to six month, haiz.. Till now I still do not know whether I make the correct decision of going for my operation at this period of time, being a burden to everyone around me, my friend, my family and my loved one.
When I was in hospital, I think about alot of things, people that really care for me and people that don't really give a shit about me. Alot of my friends will still at least sms, sent wishes all these before and after my operation, checking on how am I etc.. How bout you? I had stop msging you for one or so until last sunday I message you for inform you the dinner that I organized before my operation. Perhaps you are too attached to him that whatever things that happen to me now doesnt concern you at all. Is that what you mean by still able to remain as friend even after beak up? I believe if it was a outside friend of yours that is going for operation soon, you will at least sent some wishes to him or her for the operation.
Today Minsi come acc for the whole day, then Ren Xiaowei and Jer visited me today too. All of them bought me food and snacks, I feel so touched and really appreciate it. Perhaps like what everyone say, this is just a small operation for me as I am still alive and kicking, but simple operation like this can really make me feel who are the true friends, loved ones and people who really care about me. Thank you people. I will try my best to lead a new life, really trying.
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