Quit for good?

Today was pretty much a slacking day for me, when I wake up its like already 6pm?! I do wake up between interval during the daytime but by 6pm, I am finally awake and doing my stuff. My body biological clock is totally screw up and I think I only can blame myself for it I guess. Nothing much happen today, bought dinner for my parents and went for night run at 2-3am as usual.

Didnt get to meet up with my girl today as her lesson ended very late on every monday. The following weeks I guess we going to meet even lesser due to some reason, still trying to adapt to it thou. Clear abit of my debt today and yes I am now officially broke again, even thou I just took my pay like few days back, after clearing all my debts I am down to penniless again... -_-
Currently my life, other then spending time with my gf, I really don't have anything else to do anymore. With no money, there's nothing much I can do at the moment plus I can't find a proper temp job now, so if my gf never meet me I am just nua-ing everyday. I seriously miss doing camps, last year during this period I was happily doing camp week in week out, but now? haiz.. face with loads of debts everyday and being so stressout every single night. This is really heading nowhere and I don't know how long I can last taking all these stress.

I going to quit soccer gambling for good if everything able to settle nicely and swee swee. It has bring me enough trouble and really loads of trouble I must admit. Like what I told my gf, I am really going to quit gambling for good if I can really solve my current problem. I have let her down too many times and even I is feeling guilty now. Sorry dear.

A camp that I first cried for one of the activity

The first girl school camp that I did!

Terrible kids but wonderful accomodation.. :)

A camp with 500 kuku... -_-"

I am back to blogging!

Hello BLOGSPOT!

Its been ages since I last blog, can link back to about 3 to 4 years ago I think? Actually wanted to start blogging at the end of last year when my life is going through a tremendous changes, but I always did not carry out in the end as I am really too lazy and like to procrastinate alot. Then since I am facing insomnia right at the moment, I might as well just kickstart having a blog again.

Actually my insomnia started since few weeks back, every night before I sleep random thoughts just come to me to prevent me from sleeping peacefully. Currently I am having debts, and its really loads and loads of debts. It all started at the end of last year when my life is going really really down after ys broke off with me. I start to indulge in drinking, soccer betting and spending money aimlessly. Slowly whatever income that I earn last year from doing camps is depleted and more problems start to come. Family got money problems, I met with a motor accident and end up gotta scrapped my bike without taking any money back.

Soon I start to borrow money from friends to pay off the bills, expenses and family debts. And now, I find myself with loads of debts that I ownself do not know how am I going to clear it, I cant even face alot of my friends now, seriously. There is alot of my friend talking behind me at the moment, saying I owe money for so long and never return etc, haiz.. The problem is not I don't want to return, I just dont know where to find the money to return them at all. My monthly pay is only merely $500? Everytime when I manage to clear a debt from one friend, another friend will start to chase me for money. The cycle just go none-stop till I can really clear all the debts which can take like one year or even two year?

I must admit its my fault for making empty promises to them like I will return within a period of time and I exceed that period like way too over, so I dont blame them keep asking me for the money. And thats the reason why I been having insomnia for the past few weeks, every night keep thinking about the money problem till I cant sleep at all, only manage to fall aslp in the morning when my brain juice is really being squeezed out totally.

At the moment, I just hope I can come across a person that will be nice enough to loan me a large sum of money to let me clear all my debts straight away and I can pay that person bit by bit every month. It will be much better for me to get chased down by different friend every day, really. If I can across such a person, I really don't mind quit all my bad habbits like clubbing, drinking and gambling all these, it has cause me enough troubles for many years and the money i spent on it is already cant calculate anymore.

HELP!!!!!!!!