It still hurts afterall..

I thought today was a good day coz I win some money here in mahjong, but never did I expect my mood can change from sky high to rock bottom when I go back my room. I went back my room and log into facebook, when I see that you are attached, my heart just sank to the bottom. I had never expect you to get attached so soon, its like less then 2 months you already got a new bf le...

Even thou for the past one month plus I didnt ask you for patch up or what, but I just feel like slapping myself when I know that you are attached now. I guess the feeling of seeing a ex gf getting attached really suck big time, especially when it is like just happen so recent only. Everyday I log onto facebook, i never fail to check ur page to check that you are doing ok etc, and the last thing I hope to see is that you got a new bf.. Can say I am selfish/evil/mean or what, but I just praying that at least you won't get a new bf so soon, I don't know how to accept the news, really...

The feeling is really different now, my whole body is like feeling numb and I just feel like hiding in one corner calm myself down... I can't believe myself untill now, I still save your number in my hp as dear, it sound silly but ya... I guess people really move on as time passes by, too bad I am really a sucker that always get emotional over relationship that has already ended.