Looking at the photo above, we look like such a sweet couple and up till it has still remain as my hp wallpaper even thou we have already broke up for so many days. Till now I still can't accept the fact that relationship between us is already over, when I happened to glance at your phone wallpaper yesterday over dinner, it just further demolish my hope of saving the relationship when you have already change your wallpaper. Maybe its your way of letting people know you are single, or perhaps maybe is your way of trying not to think of me so much in order for you to get over soon.
When we meet up for dinner yesterday, even thou its only for a short while like barely less then an hour? I am really glad to see you and able to talk to you. When we are walking towards the coffeeshop, many times I have the urge of holding your hand and kissing you, but I have to resist the temptation because I know you are no longer belong to me and if I was to do it, I don't think there will be any more meet up already. Up till now, whatever I said still remain the same, if given a choice I really still want you as my gf and I still love you alot till this moment. You are constantly on my mind and nothing seems to distract me from it.
You ask me whether I am under stress recently because I seems to grown skinnier? I ownself seriously didnt realize I have grown skinnier or maybe is you too long never see me already. To be honest, yes I admit I am under stress, I am under stress thinking about our relationship all day long, the memories that we once shared and the pain that we go through together. Be it work, friends or family, nothing will be too stressful for me except relationship. No matter how things turn out badly for me towards friends or family, it could never measure up to the effect that a relationship can cause to me.
- I might not be the bf that understand you the most
- I might not be the bf that treat you the best
- I might not be the bf that cherish you the most
BUT
I am the bf that is always trying to give you everything I got, everything I do I always think of you. My poly buddy once told me that I suck at remember things like studies or any other important stuff, but my memory skill for remembering things in a relationship is excellent. He said that I always can remember all the small details of a relationship like what the girl like to drink, places that travel together before or things that done together before. I can't help but to agree his statement and I guess that is the thing that always make me unable to get over a relationship. Green tea is something that I know will never fail to brighten up your mood, I can even think of a slogan like "a bottle of green tea a day keep siew hui happy everyday!". Anyway I guess you are also quite shocked that I came down to bring dinner and drinks for you, but I guess you are really quite busy or maybe you just don't feel like talking to me? I don't know, but I think even if a friend was to visit you, you will at least wait for the lift together with him or her, but well...all I could think of perhaps you are really that busy just now, so ya...never mind.. I am still stuck in the battle of fighting the war alone, got no idea when this is going to end..
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