Back for the worse or for the good?

I am back! maybe for just a few post, suddenly have the urge for blogging, maybe due to many things happenened recently i guess? hmm..

Managing a relationship is never a easy task I must say, especially when the relationship started off from a unusual way. I believe that I am a person that handle relationship slightly different from other people. Normally when couples get together, the first few month is usually honeymoon period whereby both guy and girl will be very sweet to each other and then the "fire" will slowly start to die down depending on the efforts both party put in. But for me, it work different in the way whereby normally all my relationship, I will start to love the girl more in the later part of the relationship and very often it will be totally opposite for the girl, they will start to love me lesser and maybe I should say less committed to the relationship? I wonder where does the problem lies... hmmm...

*Honestly speaking, up till now I still really regret letting you to go work at your current workplace, I am angry with myself for introducing you the job and end up cause so much trouble to the relationship. Insecurities is what I feel nowadays, the trust process needs both parties to build up and put in lots of effort together. I don't like when guys calling or messaging u in the middle of night so often and sometimes even asking you out. It hurts me even more when I know the way you call them is the exact same way you calling me, am I really the same as them? Sometime you might think that I m being paranoid, but I am a guy and I can totally understand what other guys is thinking about you. The moment you call them sweet names or being sweet to them, you are indirectly leading them to other things already. Is there really a need for this to happen? haiz..

Anyway recently I receive a surprised sms from someone special to me jioing me for mahjong, upon receive the sms I was shock yet happy. haha.. Its been one year plus since I last saw the person and I can't deny she will always be someone special because of the memories that I had with her. Upon seeing her, I realized she has really grown up already compared to 3years ago, from the way she dress and the way she talk. She brought me back to the memories that I once had with her, be it good or bad, it just keep me thinking. The last time when I saw her, she was still attached to someone that I know, a guy that leave a sour memories to me in terms of friendship. But now the girl has already got out of relationship and got attached with another guy, this is sort of a happy and sad news to me, I know this sound ironic but ya.. Hopefully will get to see her for mahjong soon again..