One last post for year 2009?

Alright, this post suppose to blog before 2009 ended but being the Lazy me, I only type the entry till half way on the New Year Eve and here I am to continue on the entry.... :) *I am still going to post this entry on the date of 31/12/2009!

Firstly I want to say thank you to everyone that show concern for me for the past few weeks, really appreciate it alot alot. Too many things happen to me and my gf for the past few weeks, too much ups and downs to mention over here. But at the same time it also let me realize that I still got a bunch of friends that are always here for me, or even my campers is always here for me. Thanx everyone, ah huat appreciate it.

hmmm..last year I spent my new year eve countdown at Rendall house together with Cyril. Leisha, Hor Heh, Baoyun and Xiao Wei. That year the countdown was quite fun, we drank and also play different kind of board games at Rendall house thanks to the contributions of Cyril's friend. I bet all of us still remember the shouting of the Taboo game at Rendall house, we are so noisy until Rendall neighbour keep coming over to ask us lower our voice. haha... We also get to see the firework right infront of Rendall house, no need to squeeze here and there with strangers from outside or what, how cool can that be?!

This year the eve countdown was slightly different, I am suppose to spent it with my gf actually.. But haiz..sadly to say my gf fall sick on the eve itself, she was down with fever, flu and ulcer. I book out around 5pm, went to Sun Plaza to buy ingredients then went home to cook dinner for her and my family. My initial plan of spending with my gf was so much different, the day before I went to bought 2 GV goldclass tickets that is screening Avatar at 930pm on New year eve. Because I was thinking since both I n my gf has never watch a movie in GV goldclass before, so I thought of making the new year eve a little different for both of us, end up who knows so unfortunately she was down with fever etc and there goes the movie tickets....haiz..
Hmm...any way then around night 10plus her father come my house pick her and she went home already. So I spent my new year eve countdown alone at home in my room, watching firework on the TV and also listening to firework sound coming from JB.. ZzZzz.. (-_-)

So many incidents build up to welcome a brand new year, I really don't know what to say.. Hopefully everything will slowly turn out fine and I hope my gf will recover soon as I really dont wish to see her being so sick also.

Brother's Wedding

Took a 2 days off this week for my brother wedding and also run some errands on the day before my brother's wedding. Its going to be a hectic week for me!!

Wake up damn early for my brother wedding, I slept around night 3+ and I think I work up around mrn 6+! Surprisingly I wasnt feeling that tired throughout the day I don't know why also. Anyway, my gf come over my house around 7am to help up with the usual traditional wedding tea ceremony. This wedding is slightly different from my previous two brother wedding, both my 1st and 2nd brother their wedding is tea ceremony in the morning and a wedding dinner at night, but my this 3rd brother wedding is a tea ceremony in the morning and wedding lunch buffet in the noon! So in terms of timing wise it is alittle rushing coz not much resting time for us in between the tea ceremony and the wedding lunch buffet.

Anyway after the tea ceremony ended around 9+, my gf and I rest for awhile and then proceed to the wedding function that is held at Rasa Shangri-La Sentosa Resort. As there are limited vacancies in my 1st brother and 2nd brother car, I and my gf no choice gotta take the public transport despite being so dressed up! (-_-) Upon reaching harbourfront, at first I went to the control station to ask for directions to take the shuttle bus to the resort, the instructions given was not clear and we just roughly make our way to the assumed bus stop and wait for the shuttle bus. But after reaching ar, the bus stop never indicate anything and as we running late already we decided to go vivo and take the sentosa train instead. When reach vivo, the sentosa staff say we still have to pay for the entrance fee even though we have the wedding invitations card!!! As I feel quite unfair to pay for such thing, I decided to ask the staff the correct locations to wait for the free shuttle bus to the resort instead. End up they give me a even more blur directions until I totally don't know which bus stop to go wait for the shuttle bus. After touring here and there, as the time was running we no choice end up took cab at vivo to proceed to the resort. *waste money*

After reaching the resort, we went to my brother room as the solemnisation haven start yet, this was the first time I step inside Rasa Shangri-La even though I am frequent visitor to Sentosa and also this is the first time I step into their resort room. The room at the resort somehow make me feel that the room look like those room on a star cruise. The balcony view from my brother room was very nice and it is very suitable for couple to stay for sure. After awhile everyone start to proceed to the first floor and get ready for the solemnisation by the beachside.

After solemnisation, we proceed to the ballroom for the lunch buffet and I manage to see some relatives over there, people that I don't even have any idea had I ever see them before at any other places. I think this happens to everyone I suppose? Like every wedding that anyone go to, they will like see some relative or what that they dont know at all yet the relative will claim he or she had seen you before. Anyway, I think its been sometime since I last attend a wedding buffet instead of the usual wedding dinner 9-course meal, I guess the buffet trend is slowly catching up as more and more young couples are opting for it nowadays.

After the yum-seng and every other thing, and ta daah...it was home-sweet-home for everyone. I think I drank at alot of different drinks in the wedding, got orange, coke, sprit, expresso, red wine and english breakfast tea. Luckily I didnt had a major stomach upset after that.

*My parents got 4 sons, 3 already married and I am the last one left! My mom already told me something at my 3rd brother wedding, she said that since I am the last one in the family to get married, she will want the wedding to be a big big one and end it on a very good note... So I guess 1 or 2 more years later, the pressure will slowly start to build on me.. oh well...ZzzZz

What do you want in a Bf/Gf?

I think today is relatively a reflection day and a bad day for me, was thinking how bad could it get? I vomitted after my lunch today, I sprain my ankle when I was on my way home from lunch and my eyes is having some infection or something.

Vomitted after eat bak chor mee for lunch today, the portion wasn't big at all but somehow I just feel like vomit everything out after the meal. Appetite affected? I do not know about it. Then while walking back home, I accidentally step into a drain and sprain my right ankle, yes thats right my already operated right ankle. Maybe because I was walking aimlessly that I do not realize the direction that I am heading towards. Eye infection needless to say, its because of the unhygiene practise I had, eye infection is already nothing new to me.

I spent the whole afternoon tidy up my room today since I do not know who to meet and where to go. Totally got no plans and no idea what I want for today. I guess my room now is pretty much ready for my brother's wedding next wednesday even though I simply just sweep up my room, keep plenty of things and throw away loads of trash only. I guess my room got alot of things until in the beginning I do not know where should I start with. Done alot of reflections today while tidying my room, still do not know why must we end up where we are now.

My family still doesnt know anything about us and my mum keep asking about you today, "like what time you coming for my brother's wedding", "never head out and meet your gf ar?" when I accompany her to eat dinner, she still ask me am I meeting you later. I don't know what to tell her other then saying you are busy today and I not sure what time you are coming for my brother wedding when I do not even know will I be seeing you at my brother's wedding.

Anyway done alot of reflections today and also receive different kind of response from different group of people which kee me thinking about it. What do people really want in a Bf/GF? Is it possible to make a relationship everlasting just by truly loving each other? How about other factors like personalities? interest? environment? peer influence? other commitment? It just keep me thinking...

*Receive your message when I was watching the 9pm channel 8 show, even though its one and only short message of the day, its enough to make me tears when I read the message. You make me reflect even more, the time when I went to your house and take care of you because you are sick, it is the one and only time I manage to step inside your house because no one is around. It is definitely a short but very memorable memories.

Sleepless night...Is there really a bastard in me?

This post is going to be rather dragging and non-related to people who are not close to me, skip it if you dont feel like reading it.

I just had a very big quarrel with my gf and the topic of the quarrel has carried on ever since last month, then yesterday again the issue was raised and once again we quarrel until quite badly, now I n her is already sorta "break up". Haiz.. Is this ending that I bring myself into? I really do not know.

Perhaps it is just me and my character, the way I was brought up and the journey that I walk through make me who I are today, which I do not know whether it has benefit me or done more harm to me. People who know me well enough will know that actually I am a very outgoing and open minded person, be it the way I do things or the way I treat people. Even though I am attached, I always tell people that the last thing I want a friend to do is to distance himself or herself away from me just because I am attached. So everytime even though I am attached I still appear as though I am single and be close to many people, and sometime this actually backfire badly. I will slowly fall into a trap when the person actually show more affection to me then my gf. But most of the time, I will wake up eventually before anything really happen and someone get super hurt. Ever since my secondary school life, I will always have people that label me as being a flirt, a fishermen or a player. All those names has followed me ever since I was sec 4, is it because I am really such a person? Or is just because other people is unable to accept the thinking that I had and do not understand me well enough.

To me, a gf will definitely be much more important then a friend because a gf is someone that is very important to me in my life. even though friends is also important to me but somehow it is just at a different level between gf and friends. Its okie if my friend do not understand me, but I feel hurt when my own gf do not understand me well enough and I think I always high expectation from my gf in terms of understanding me, thats why I seldom have a gf that really last for very long. However, be it the friend is close to me or not close to me at all, I do not like it when my gf scold and insult my friend infront of me, same thing like I do not like my friend insult or scold my gf infront of me. It is just my way of showing mutual respect for both parties, I believe many of you can understand how does it feel when you are stucked in between friends and bf/gf. It is a damn sucky feeling when you just want to be a peacemaker between the two parties. It happen before in many of my relationships that I can easily name a few, Eunice and Chu ling, Yuanshan and Cherrie, Chenyin and Ngo Laam. No matter how NEUTRAL I am, one of the party will always say that I am siding the other side and the other side will also say the same thing to me. So I end up sandwiched between two parties and seriously is it too much or too unreasonable of me when I ask one party to stop scolding another party infront of me? I don't care whether you going to scold another person or what, what I ask for is just please don't do it infront of me cause I really do not know how to react to it.

I always act as a counsellor to many of my friends or campers that have relationship problems, being a big brother/sister/daddy/mummy to many of them by offering advice, a shoulder for them to lean on and a listening ears for their problems. But when it come to myself, I always find myself facing alot of problems in my own relationship, unable to manage it well for a long period of time. Sometime I also do not know what I really look for in a relationship, is it because I just cant settle down? I think that I am not good enough for my gf? Or I haven't found a correct person that can convinced me that its really the time for me settle down now. There can be hundred and one reasons around, but I really do not know which is the best reason that best describe me.

Last year, I found a girl that I really wanted to settle down with, someone that I can building a future together with. But end up what I get is being hurt badly and pick up far too many learning points from that relationship. I had never ever gone so crazy for a relationship before in my life, and the first time I put in so much effort into a relationship is the one that hurt me the most. Its not easy to pick myself up from that failed relationship, I been through loads of shit to get over it, really. After that failed relationship, I become a reserved person and proceed to all the new relationships with caution, preparing myself for the worst that could happen. This might seem unfair to my gf, but I really got no choice but proceed with caution after being hurt so badly before.

As for my "current gf", I and her also been through quite alot of difficulties then got together. Alot of people think that I and her wont last long because our thinking is very different, way much different from one another. She was still attached when I know her at the beginning of the year and I was sorta "attached" too. Thinking back, I could really never thank her enough for walking through the tough journey with me when I was facing the biggest shit of my life in the beginning of the year. She trusted me again and again, willing to solve my problems with me and help me with alot of dificulties. Even though our character is very much different from one another, we still tried building on a relationship together. It is really not easy with the kind of friends we each have and the different environment that we grow up from. Initially everything was fine, sometime we will have little argument here and there but it was never too serious, until last month when everything go haywire. I do not know where is the relationship is heading to and right now alot of things is running through my mind, I guess I really need time to sort it out.

*CY: I just open and watch the video that I made for you for your 21st birthday, thinking back few months ago and looking at where we at now, its way too much difference isnt it? When is the last time we really share the joy we had like before, the smile that we used to see on each other face? The patience, tolerance and able to compromise for one another? It just feel so different now, really...

Photos from Xiaowei Chalet

Instructors Oei!

My buddy for 4years I think?

I miss doing camps with this group of guys, the memories is wonderful...

Why Andrew siam away from me eh? I look so friendly and cheerful lol..

*I think in that chalet ar, the most suay one is Cyril. Just nice when we about to go home already, our dear Xiaowei did a merlion on him when he make a turn after washing hand!! I think that must be the most memorable experience for Cyril in that chalet.. haha

Birthday

This is going to be a short update before I return back to camp later. Recently alot of my friends is having their birthday celebration in the month of November and December. So far I had went for one and also missed out one. I went for Xiaowei chalet that was held at Aranda country club, the last time I went there I think it was during my primary school days, that show how long the club has exist ar.. haha..

Xiao wei Chalet was quite fun, again saw alot of instructors that is from my batch and also the batch slightly later then me, I will always remember the memories that all of us shared doing camps together, all the minor and major issues that occured during different camps. It was quite a pity that I gotta rush off that night as I got a overnight mahjong session waiting for me and I seriously regret going for that mahjong session, I lost freaking lot again. I only can blamed myself for not decisive and strong minded enough to skip the mahjong session that day. Oh well..I guess partly also lately for the past few months, I had been on the losing streak for mahjong. Keep losing non-stop and even if win, the winnings is only peanuts to the amount that I lost, I guess I really to do something to have a change of luck, any one can help me?


*Samantha, sorry that I unable to attend your chalet. That day I break camp then really quite tired, thus unable to make it for your chalet. So sorry for it.

Overdue photos..

Sagi House Captain!

Cam-whoring


When Kumar Kumar meet Starwberry*


Do we look fierce enough? haha!

Back to school.....

One of the fav photos that I like from the IJC camp

Ah *hua* and Ah *niang*

Cam-whoring again..

When is the last time we ever see such mess at JBAC? I think if jody saw this, she will faint*

First time I get to eat hokkien mee as one of meal in camp! the picture cant show the hokkien mee but i think it taste quite good and special compared to the usual bento set we always had in camp.

Time for copycat again, the girl can really dance well by the way.. haha..

updates...

Somemore pics from the NUS high Camp, will upload all the photos for IJC camp at a later time, stay tuned!

Nobody looking at us.. :(

I look like i am flying.. sorta weird position...

I look damn gay in this photo I think?


Two color on my leg!

Copy cat time!!

Everyone is leaving, slowly...

Recently I got alot of things that I wanted to blog, and I mean really alot alot, just that I am sorta lazy and thats why it just keep dragging and dragging and dragging. Alot of things happened to me, especially between me and my gf. We quarrel till it reached an extent whereby we nearly broke up, I believe both me and her definitely do not want this to happen, I just hope the whole matter can be over soon and don't let it affect us. Its no use for you and her to keep quarrel or scolding each other, end up its not going to help either side. I am sorry that I am the root of the trouble, right now I just hope all the problems will be over soon.

Anyway, I Did a B2B camp last week for Kent and Jeremy Tang(his last camp), one was NUS high school year 1 and another was Innova JC J1 Adventure camp. I badly sprained my ankle right before the campfire for the NUS high camp, the stupid thing is that I actually sprain my ankle when I was teaching the students how to dance Xi Shua Shua, how dumb can that be.. -_-

But nevertheless I proceed on with the campfire and also next day the IJC camp. And guess what? Even though I left the NUS high camp on the second night, I was told that the teachers think my class was quite good and they actually won the Best class award in that camp!! haha.. *hope you guys will not forget instructor ah huat*

Anyway, even though I was injured, I wouldnt want to back out for that IJC camp because its Jeremy tang last camp, I don't think I will ever get a chance to do his camp anymore and I don't want to let this opportunity goes to waste. For the past few years, all Tang camp was very memorable to me, be its a 3d2n camp or just simply a day event, always got something happen. I can't imagine I nearly quitted camp HA because I put Tang aeroplane and put up a no-show for his day event. That time I wasn't even close to him at all and I was so afraid that I offended him and will get blacklisted! But luckily, end up he still got called me up and do camps etc and thats how my journey in Camp HA carry on.

• Tang is the first CIC that treat instructors pizza for supper in camp, two nights in a row somemore!
• The one and only CIC that allow us to play mj in JBAC!! how crazy is that?!
• My first tertiary camp in Camp HA is also under Tang, I still can remember is ITE Simei Bridge Leader camp at JBAC. It was fun, definitely.
• He is also the reason why I actually sign the exclusive contract for Camp HA even though I think now the contract like not much useful also.

When I think back all the memories we once shared and want to thank him for all the memories and stuff, I actually cried during the 2nd day debrief in IJC camp. Initially I thought I wouldn't cry for him because he is not as close to me as how andrew are, but still when I start to think my appreciation speech to him, I can't help but cried because he is going to leave Camp HA already.

So anyway, once again I would want to wish Tang all the best in his new job direction on a brand new career. With a great leader like him, I believe he can definitely survive in any job field and be part of the elite force in the job field. Take care bro.

MAKAN TIME!!



Time for bollywood dance? haha



why jun xiang look so fierce?!

Me and the birthday girl! Sweet 21st!

i m back, for good or for bad?!

Hello people! I am here to make a quick short update to my blog before I going for my B2B camp this week with NUS High and IJC. Hopefully this will be a fun fun week before I finally return back to my HELL ground again. :( Alot of things happen to me in the past few week or I should say I had kept myself damn packed for the past few weeks.

- Help Carolyn to do a 4D3N camp at Pulau Ubin. The beginning was quite bad and everyone was complaining about the camp, but luckily in the end everyone enjoyed and I bet it leave a ever lasting memories in their heart!

- Help Potato with his first camp of the year, it has been a long long time since I last work with this group of instructors. The feeling is great even thou there are some hiccups in the camp, hope potato has solve it by now.

- Do camp for Choa Chu Kang Sec 2, its the second time I am taking this school and I must say this school the student is really quite high by nature, last year and this year both equally high! I am glad to see that my class really bonded quite well together, they cried for each other during campfire because they know they going to be separate class the following year. I feel sad for them also but well...Life is this, only after separation and obstacles, people then will realize the importance of friendship and learn to cherish it.

- Still got camp for few other school like St Hilda's Pri and Nan Chiau Pri which I shall not go into details before my blog start to become boring...

Anyway, had a very big quarrel for with my gf for the past one week due to some reasons.. But thank god everything has been solved now and hopefully it will be peaceful from now onwards. Its hurtful and tiring to each other in this manner because it is spoiling our r/s, something that both of us do not want it to happen ya.. Oh ya, my gf lost her wallet ytd at yishun and we only realize it after a few hours! Went to make a police report for the lost wallet and I can tell you, I NOW FINALLY UNDERSTAND WHY MY FATHER DO NOT LIKE POLICE AT ALL!! The way they handle things is like so reluctantly and willing to do it, seriously don't understand why. Anyway, lucky my gf is lost her wallet at Northpoint Bata, the staff called her today and asked her to go collect her wallet.

Thats all I guess? Will update again when I m back from my B2B camp. Before I end this post, I just want to say its kinda sad that one by one everyone is leaving Camp HA. Andrew left last year, Jeremy tang and Eunice is going to leave like less then three weeks time? I can't imagine how Camp HA is going to survive when Jeremy and Eunice left the company, with the peak season coming up, can the company really cope with it? Sigh...

ALOHA! here is more and more photos.. hehe...

*alot of unglam photos btw..


Gay laugh?

a bloody hand!

Me and Keathwee

Me and my gf!!

My ear is injured.. -_-

erm...-_-

Me and krystle

Sec Sch friends..

YEA!!! Finally can upload some new photos to my blog! has been having problems with uploading since few weeks back.. These are some of the photos, I got like TONS OF IT haven't uploaded.. Stay tuned and wait for more to come!

Ta daah!!

I m finally back to blogging again! After procrastinate for like near two months and layers of dust forming on my blog, I decided to dedicate this post to all my loved ones, friends and anyone that has help me for the past two month especially for my chalet!

Had a blast for my birthday chalet last month, done many crazy things I should say.. hmm...initial planning stage of chalet was quite bad due to lack of communications and patience, then alot of problems start to surface, I even nearly wanted to cancel off the chalet. But well..eventually most of the problems of was solved at the chalet itself and everything went smoothly without much hiccups.. I will try to upload loads of photo taken at the chalet soon as I do not know what is wrong with my laptop, can't upload photos to blogger.. argh!

Add on to my birthday chalet, I and dear had a wonderful dinner buffet last month at Marina Square, a restaurant called Azabo Sabo I think? Not counting the usual steamboat meal, I think thats the first time I ate a normal buffet with dear and somemore its only two of us?! haha.. Really ate till damn bloated over there, the food is not too expensive and actually quite a good place to eat with a group of friends.. hmm..alright, I shall stop here at the moment, will update soon again with all the photos ya.. :)

Back again!

I am finally back to blogging again! *after leaving it alone for like more then one month I think*

Been back into the army for more then one month plus already. Currently I am already officially down pest to C9L2 but I am still staying within my combat unit at the moment. Hopefully I am able to get post out as soon as possible, don't really like the life of doing admin work and sai keng everyday in the company, completely waste of time!

Going to have a chalet in three weeks time at Costa Sand pasir, its been sometime sinc I last had a big celebration for my birthday. The last time I had a big celebration was having BBQ at east cost park 3 years ago I think? That birthday BBQ unknowingly matchmake 3 couples together after that, haha.. *you guys know who you are!*

I am quite excited for the upcoming birthday chalet and I must thank zhong wen and my gf, if not I wouldnt be able to have this birthday chalet also. Thou its abit like weird to have a big celebration for a 22nd birthday, but nevertheless since I do not have a proper celebration last year, I am so gonna make it big for this year. So hopefully most of the people that I invited is able to make it for the chalet as I have no idea when will it be the next time I got such a big birthday celebration again. Of course with a birthday celebration, I hope I will be able to get all the things I want for the birthday!


*Birthday Wishlist
- A new red sneakers!
- Levi's black jeans
- Hugo Boss perfume (Energize)
- A digital camera
- Being able to post out from my stupid camp
- Clear up all my debts

SUPER TURN OFF TO BE BACK TO ARMY!!! -_-"

Hello people!!

Didnt blog for the past one to two weeks due to busy enjoying my "holiday" and also busy with camps, girlfriends and friends etc... Finally after a long 3 and half month of MC, I am going to return back to my camp for good, no more MC extension for my ankle already and this sound super bad!

These 3mth plus of "holidays" should be the highlight for me for this year I think? Beside recovery for my operated ankle, I manage to do a few camps, crash alot of campfire and even got myself a new girlfriend! I am really glad that I choose the operation date at a very suitable period, if not there won't be so many things that happen in my life for the past few months!

At this moment, the thought of going back to camp really very turn me off, considering the past few months I been leading a life of a normal guy and getting paid at the same time! Now have to go back to camp and back to my stupid mon-fri in camp and only out during the weekends... ZZzZz

I miss doing camps, SAC camp and Coral Sec was good, it give me the feeling and enjoyment that I get when I am actively doing camp last year before I enter NS. Considering I had stop doing a proper camp for like near a year? I was kinda surprised I still can keep my level of highness and enthusiaism when I am doing Coral Sec camp and SAC camp... *give ah huat a pat on the back, a job well done* haha..

Lastly, even thou today I gotta get my stuff prepared as its been sometime since I last book in, so I am quite afraid that I didnt bring important things back to camp. I spent my "last day" today with my girl, although never do anything much, just a normal lunch and a short stayover at my house for awhile before we head to wdl checkpoint Sheng Siong and then sent her home.

Dear: The past two weeks doesnt seems to be a very happy period for you due to too many differences between us I guess? Hope when I go back to camp, all the problems will go away slowly and you will be much happier then before.

Alright! thats about it I guess? Hope I can succeed in getting post out from my stupid unit and to somewhere that is much nearer to my house and able to stayout every day!

gonna be away for two days!

Woohoo!

I am not gonna be around to blog for the next two days because I will be busy for the next day with no internet access! Went back to camp today(Monday) to endorse my MC for another two weeks extension before I finally be good and return back to my unit. haha... So I guess in total I took 3month 2weeks MC after my ankle operation in February and I believe I had make use of the time as much as I can. Sunday went to play soccer with Renz and friend, but as I hasnt been exercizing for very long, I now suffering from the after effect of playing soccer like muscle ache etc.. Somemore I think I injure my ankle again when it hasnt really fully recovered, guess it gonna really take quite sometime for my ankle to heal completely for a person as active as me. LOL!

I realize alot of my friend is going Australia to study, especially those grad from RP, this make me ponder alot regarding about getting a degree. At the moment my plan is once I ORD, i planning to work for a year first to save some money then go SIM to further my studies. However, knowing my charcter I know that once I start working full-time for a period, I will be so not motivated to get back to studies again. This is why I do not whether I should try reserved a seat now at SIM or only start to plan two years later. hmm...

Dear: Thank you for accompany me all the way to town for PCB, then sit back bus all the way to Choa Chu Kang and then to my camp, I appreciate it alot alot. Sorry I never listen to you and end up injure myself during sunday soccer, but don't get too worried over my injuries ya coz your bf is strong and so gonna be alright! Take care for the next two days as I will not be around but I will try to call you at night and also reply to your msgs as much as I can ya. :)



Tekong photo, quite long ago

Old photo, hardwork of me, david, shi hui and amelia

Sorry

Aloha!
Lazy to blog for the past few days and here I am back to blogging again! For the past few days that I didn't, quite a number of things happen between me and my girl. On thurs, we had a slight quarrel over some small issue, I admit its partly my fault for being over-sensitive on that day I guess? Supposingly I am suppose to return back to my camp on the coming monday and I really hate the thoughts of it after being MC for 3month! The thoughts of returning back to camp, unable to book out everyday and limited time to spend with friends and girlfriend is seriously affecting my mood ever since Wed.

Then somehow on thurs everything like just snapped my mind! Being frustrated with my girlfriend for not replying to my sms without saying anything untill I call her at night when she told me forget to reply my sms, I become totally pissed and started a small quarrel with her that night. Sorry dear, I admit partly its really my fault for being so hot temper that day because my mood is really quite that period and also that incident is not the first time already, thats why I was so pissed that day, I hope you understand. Sorry to make you cried over it, I feel bad about it, really.

On friday night, Supposingly to be pleasant night with my girlfriend bringing her to eat the bai meehoon that we have been craving for quite sometime, but end up we didn't enjoy our dinner because we quarrel once again when we were at SSC talking on the topic of "clubbing". Alot of things was said, being pleasant or unpleasant to the ears which end up both of us hurting each other. This is something which both of us didn't want to and luckily we managed to solve it in the end even though it take quite some time.

Dear: I had told you before and I still going to say it again, the last thing that I ever want to see or do, is to see you cry and hurting you. This will not be what I want and I will try my best to achieve that, perhaps I didn't let you understand me very well before we got together and there is a big difference in the way we look at things. But I hope that no matter what, we can work together and solve our differences, the past two days of quarreling is really bad and both of us can feel it ourself, things will get better for us alright. :)

My style, my way!

Ring ring, ring ring!

K: Hello!! good morning, are you doing your report?
CY: hmm...erm...i fall back to sleep.. hehe

K: ermz... -_-" I stil thought you so good able to wake up ar
CY: I fall back to sleep after msging you just now.

K: okok, time to wake up!!! don't sleep anymore already.
CY: okok, I will wake up now...

K: hmm..hey dear, you know something?? Your house recently hired a delivery men! And the delivery men actually is waiting for you to collect breakfast at life area here.
CY: *stone for period* HUH! oh...you are at the lift?! I am still lying on my bed lol..

K: The delivery is here to deliver ai xin breakfast, specially delivered and waiting for you.
CY: okok, but erm...can i go brush teeth first? haha...

*thats the end of the short story, abit bo liao to others but well..as long as the person like can already, haha..


Last time in the past I always got friend talking about "never treat your boyfriend or girlfriend too good at the beginning of the relationship, this is to prevent your boyfriend or girlfriend taking you for granted in the long run during the relationship. Must learn to know when to give and when to take" But well...although sometime I do agree on that point alittle but somehow or rather I always didnt follow that theory among all my relationship in the past and present. When I am attached to someone I love, I think that it is right for me to treat that person as good as I can and treating her very well. What for having a girlfriend but need to hold back alittle in the way of treating her, thats is so not me. I believe in giving the best that I could to my girlfriend, always shower her with love and concern. Even though my temper might be bad at times, but I am a person that really can get over it easily especially when having quarrel with my girlfriend.

I guess I am finally going back to camp in less then a week time as I don't think my MC could be extend any further when I go back for my medical appt this Friday. Which mean that this is the final week that I could spent more time with my girlfriend and friends, doing whatever things that I always wanted to do. Its kinda sad because my girlfriend itself is very busy with her school stuff especially this week, my buddy is at work almost everyday due to stupid H1N1 virus, then the instructors side also never call me for outing anymore, everyone just simply got their own stuff to busy with and I am so bored with nothing to do at all. Since this is the final week that I can spent more time with my girl, I will definitely aim to try spending more time with her and make full use of all the remaining time I have.. :)

Tekong days!

Another NP camp photo

King Kong oei!

I keep having problems when uploading photos of me and my girlfriend. No idea why also.. hmm..

Happy one month!

Hello! Been lazy for the past few days and catching up on my dragonball GT on youtube, therefore didnt blog for few days... But never mind, i finally finish watching all the episode of dragonball GT and now is back to boredom at night again... :(

hmm...today 17th May is the one month anniversary of me and chenyin! Time really flies and unknowingly one month just passed like that! Been out the whole day with her since 12+ in the noon and we went to two area, Yishun and Tampiness. Went to eat Teppanyaki at Yishun for lunch since its been ages I last ate Teppanyaki and my dear girl don't know what is Teppanyaki. Come to think about it, there's a period I even ate that once every week and it carry on for one month I think? After that went to buy my contacts and off we go Tampiness! Initially plan was to catch the 2pm movie "ramen girl" over there, walk around after movie and have Ajisen ramen for dinner. But due to abit of delay here and there, we couldnt make it for 2pm movie, thus we end up spending the whole day walking around all 3 shopping center in Tampiness.

Things that we consume at tampiness alone includes
- takopaichi
- mr bean pancake and soya milk
- ajisen ramen
- soft shell crab
- crab croquette
- fried fish
- ice lemon tea
- ice yuanyang

I guess thats all for what we consume at Tampiness, its kinda loads of food and drinks I think? LoL....

After dinner decided to head back to nua at my house for awhile and I sent her home after that! Its kinda a pity that I forget to bring out camera today, if not can take loads of photo for memories. But well...never mind, there's always next time!

*Dear, The past one month you have been through quite a number of problems with me and see me through my happy and bad days for the past one month, its been sometime since I last had this feeling and I really enjoying every minute of your accompany. Sorry for making you feeling insecure at times, I don't really wish to see you always get so worried also. The foundation that we are building for the past month is definitely going very strong at the moment and I believe it will last me till very long. I can see the effort that you put into the relationship, I really appreciate alot. Must have more faith in yourself and me alright, we will work hand in hand together and keep building a strong foundation together. Hope you really enjoyed yourself today dear, I love you.

I cant really remember which camp is this!

Cute right?

Trying!

Hello! Actually I suppose to be sleeping now, but somehow I been tossing around on the bed for the past 2 to 3hr and I still can't get to sleep!! I guess I really just have to find things to do to tire myself every night, if not really very hard to sleep early. Since I promise my girl that I am going to change my unhealthy lifestyle, I will definitely try to do it. Hopefully this won't take too long and please give me some time to change ok dear?

I finally got a proper working TV in my room now, courtesy of my second brother! My old tv in my room has been giving me problem ever since last few months back, it will auto shutdown while watching or can't even on at all! Many times when my friend was watching dvd in my room, the TV will not give me any face and just shut down suddenly! End up I become so pai seh infront my friend or girlfriend.. ZzzzZZ (-_-")

Met my girl yesterday to collect something from her and I seriously want to thank her for everything she done for me and everything that she help me with. Dear, thank you for willing to face the problems with me and helping me to solve it, its not gonna be a easy path for us for the next two year or so, I am glad that we will work hand in hand together to face it as a couple ya, thank you for everything. You are seriously the motivation in my life now in everything I do, because of you I will try my best to change and not disappoint you again. :)

*I am freaking hungry now! Got cravings for mee goreng with chicken wing and Sembawang Bai bee hoon... :(

Quit for good?

Today was pretty much a slacking day for me, when I wake up its like already 6pm?! I do wake up between interval during the daytime but by 6pm, I am finally awake and doing my stuff. My body biological clock is totally screw up and I think I only can blame myself for it I guess. Nothing much happen today, bought dinner for my parents and went for night run at 2-3am as usual.

Didnt get to meet up with my girl today as her lesson ended very late on every monday. The following weeks I guess we going to meet even lesser due to some reason, still trying to adapt to it thou. Clear abit of my debt today and yes I am now officially broke again, even thou I just took my pay like few days back, after clearing all my debts I am down to penniless again... -_-
Currently my life, other then spending time with my gf, I really don't have anything else to do anymore. With no money, there's nothing much I can do at the moment plus I can't find a proper temp job now, so if my gf never meet me I am just nua-ing everyday. I seriously miss doing camps, last year during this period I was happily doing camp week in week out, but now? haiz.. face with loads of debts everyday and being so stressout every single night. This is really heading nowhere and I don't know how long I can last taking all these stress.

I going to quit soccer gambling for good if everything able to settle nicely and swee swee. It has bring me enough trouble and really loads of trouble I must admit. Like what I told my gf, I am really going to quit gambling for good if I can really solve my current problem. I have let her down too many times and even I is feeling guilty now. Sorry dear.

A camp that I first cried for one of the activity

The first girl school camp that I did!

Terrible kids but wonderful accomodation.. :)

A camp with 500 kuku... -_-"