Alright, this post suppose to blog before 2009 ended but being the Lazy me, I only type the entry till half way on the New Year Eve and here I am to continue on the entry.... :) *I am still going to post this entry on the date of 31/12/2009!
Firstly I want to say thank you to everyone that show concern for me for the past few weeks, really appreciate it alot alot. Too many things happen to me and my gf for the past few weeks, too much ups and downs to mention over here. But at the same time it also let me realize that I still got a bunch of friends that are always here for me, or even my campers is always here for me. Thanx everyone, ah huat appreciate it.
hmmm..last year I spent my new year eve countdown at Rendall house together with Cyril. Leisha, Hor Heh, Baoyun and Xiao Wei. That year the countdown was quite fun, we drank and also play different kind of board games at Rendall house thanks to the contributions of Cyril's friend. I bet all of us still remember the shouting of the Taboo game at Rendall house, we are so noisy until Rendall neighbour keep coming over to ask us lower our voice. haha... We also get to see the firework right infront of Rendall house, no need to squeeze here and there with strangers from outside or what, how cool can that be?!
This year the eve countdown was slightly different, I am suppose to spent it with my gf actually.. But haiz..sadly to say my gf fall sick on the eve itself, she was down with fever, flu and ulcer. I book out around 5pm, went to Sun Plaza to buy ingredients then went home to cook dinner for her and my family. My initial plan of spending with my gf was so much different, the day before I went to bought 2 GV goldclass tickets that is screening Avatar at 930pm on New year eve. Because I was thinking since both I n my gf has never watch a movie in GV goldclass before, so I thought of making the new year eve a little different for both of us, end up who knows so unfortunately she was down with fever etc and there goes the movie tickets....haiz..
Hmm...any way then around night 10plus her father come my house pick her and she went home already. So I spent my new year eve countdown alone at home in my room, watching firework on the TV and also listening to firework sound coming from JB.. ZzZzz.. (-_-)
So many incidents build up to welcome a brand new year, I really don't know what to say.. Hopefully everything will slowly turn out fine and I hope my gf will recover soon as I really dont wish to see her being so sick also.
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Brother's Wedding
Took a 2 days off this week for my brother wedding and also run some errands on the day before my brother's wedding. Its going to be a hectic week for me!!
Wake up damn early for my brother wedding, I slept around night 3+ and I think I work up around mrn 6+! Surprisingly I wasnt feeling that tired throughout the day I don't know why also. Anyway, my gf come over my house around 7am to help up with the usual traditional wedding tea ceremony. This wedding is slightly different from my previous two brother wedding, both my 1st and 2nd brother their wedding is tea ceremony in the morning and a wedding dinner at night, but my this 3rd brother wedding is a tea ceremony in the morning and wedding lunch buffet in the noon! So in terms of timing wise it is alittle rushing coz not much resting time for us in between the tea ceremony and the wedding lunch buffet.
Anyway after the tea ceremony ended around 9+, my gf and I rest for awhile and then proceed to the wedding function that is held at Rasa Shangri-La Sentosa Resort. As there are limited vacancies in my 1st brother and 2nd brother car, I and my gf no choice gotta take the public transport despite being so dressed up! (-_-) Upon reaching harbourfront, at first I went to the control station to ask for directions to take the shuttle bus to the resort, the instructions given was not clear and we just roughly make our way to the assumed bus stop and wait for the shuttle bus. But after reaching ar, the bus stop never indicate anything and as we running late already we decided to go vivo and take the sentosa train instead. When reach vivo, the sentosa staff say we still have to pay for the entrance fee even though we have the wedding invitations card!!! As I feel quite unfair to pay for such thing, I decided to ask the staff the correct locations to wait for the free shuttle bus to the resort instead. End up they give me a even more blur directions until I totally don't know which bus stop to go wait for the shuttle bus. After touring here and there, as the time was running we no choice end up took cab at vivo to proceed to the resort. *waste money*
After reaching the resort, we went to my brother room as the solemnisation haven start yet, this was the first time I step inside Rasa Shangri-La even though I am frequent visitor to Sentosa and also this is the first time I step into their resort room. The room at the resort somehow make me feel that the room look like those room on a star cruise. The balcony view from my brother room was very nice and it is very suitable for couple to stay for sure. After awhile everyone start to proceed to the first floor and get ready for the solemnisation by the beachside.
After solemnisation, we proceed to the ballroom for the lunch buffet and I manage to see some relatives over there, people that I don't even have any idea had I ever see them before at any other places. I think this happens to everyone I suppose? Like every wedding that anyone go to, they will like see some relative or what that they dont know at all yet the relative will claim he or she had seen you before. Anyway, I think its been sometime since I last attend a wedding buffet instead of the usual wedding dinner 9-course meal, I guess the buffet trend is slowly catching up as more and more young couples are opting for it nowadays.
After the yum-seng and every other thing, and ta daah...it was home-sweet-home for everyone. I think I drank at alot of different drinks in the wedding, got orange, coke, sprit, expresso, red wine and english breakfast tea. Luckily I didnt had a major stomach upset after that.
*My parents got 4 sons, 3 already married and I am the last one left! My mom already told me something at my 3rd brother wedding, she said that since I am the last one in the family to get married, she will want the wedding to be a big big one and end it on a very good note... So I guess 1 or 2 more years later, the pressure will slowly start to build on me.. oh well...ZzzZz
Wake up damn early for my brother wedding, I slept around night 3+ and I think I work up around mrn 6+! Surprisingly I wasnt feeling that tired throughout the day I don't know why also. Anyway, my gf come over my house around 7am to help up with the usual traditional wedding tea ceremony. This wedding is slightly different from my previous two brother wedding, both my 1st and 2nd brother their wedding is tea ceremony in the morning and a wedding dinner at night, but my this 3rd brother wedding is a tea ceremony in the morning and wedding lunch buffet in the noon! So in terms of timing wise it is alittle rushing coz not much resting time for us in between the tea ceremony and the wedding lunch buffet.
Anyway after the tea ceremony ended around 9+, my gf and I rest for awhile and then proceed to the wedding function that is held at Rasa Shangri-La Sentosa Resort. As there are limited vacancies in my 1st brother and 2nd brother car, I and my gf no choice gotta take the public transport despite being so dressed up! (-_-) Upon reaching harbourfront, at first I went to the control station to ask for directions to take the shuttle bus to the resort, the instructions given was not clear and we just roughly make our way to the assumed bus stop and wait for the shuttle bus. But after reaching ar, the bus stop never indicate anything and as we running late already we decided to go vivo and take the sentosa train instead. When reach vivo, the sentosa staff say we still have to pay for the entrance fee even though we have the wedding invitations card!!! As I feel quite unfair to pay for such thing, I decided to ask the staff the correct locations to wait for the free shuttle bus to the resort instead. End up they give me a even more blur directions until I totally don't know which bus stop to go wait for the shuttle bus. After touring here and there, as the time was running we no choice end up took cab at vivo to proceed to the resort. *waste money*
After reaching the resort, we went to my brother room as the solemnisation haven start yet, this was the first time I step inside Rasa Shangri-La even though I am frequent visitor to Sentosa and also this is the first time I step into their resort room. The room at the resort somehow make me feel that the room look like those room on a star cruise. The balcony view from my brother room was very nice and it is very suitable for couple to stay for sure. After awhile everyone start to proceed to the first floor and get ready for the solemnisation by the beachside.
After solemnisation, we proceed to the ballroom for the lunch buffet and I manage to see some relatives over there, people that I don't even have any idea had I ever see them before at any other places. I think this happens to everyone I suppose? Like every wedding that anyone go to, they will like see some relative or what that they dont know at all yet the relative will claim he or she had seen you before. Anyway, I think its been sometime since I last attend a wedding buffet instead of the usual wedding dinner 9-course meal, I guess the buffet trend is slowly catching up as more and more young couples are opting for it nowadays.
After the yum-seng and every other thing, and ta daah...it was home-sweet-home for everyone. I think I drank at alot of different drinks in the wedding, got orange, coke, sprit, expresso, red wine and english breakfast tea. Luckily I didnt had a major stomach upset after that.
*My parents got 4 sons, 3 already married and I am the last one left! My mom already told me something at my 3rd brother wedding, she said that since I am the last one in the family to get married, she will want the wedding to be a big big one and end it on a very good note... So I guess 1 or 2 more years later, the pressure will slowly start to build on me.. oh well...ZzzZz
Friday, December 18, 2009
What do you want in a Bf/Gf?
I think today is relatively a reflection day and a bad day for me, was thinking how bad could it get? I vomitted after my lunch today, I sprain my ankle when I was on my way home from lunch and my eyes is having some infection or something.
Vomitted after eat bak chor mee for lunch today, the portion wasn't big at all but somehow I just feel like vomit everything out after the meal. Appetite affected? I do not know about it. Then while walking back home, I accidentally step into a drain and sprain my right ankle, yes thats right my already operated right ankle. Maybe because I was walking aimlessly that I do not realize the direction that I am heading towards. Eye infection needless to say, its because of the unhygiene practise I had, eye infection is already nothing new to me.
I spent the whole afternoon tidy up my room today since I do not know who to meet and where to go. Totally got no plans and no idea what I want for today. I guess my room now is pretty much ready for my brother's wedding next wednesday even though I simply just sweep up my room, keep plenty of things and throw away loads of trash only. I guess my room got alot of things until in the beginning I do not know where should I start with. Done alot of reflections today while tidying my room, still do not know why must we end up where we are now.
My family still doesnt know anything about us and my mum keep asking about you today, "like what time you coming for my brother's wedding", "never head out and meet your gf ar?" when I accompany her to eat dinner, she still ask me am I meeting you later. I don't know what to tell her other then saying you are busy today and I not sure what time you are coming for my brother wedding when I do not even know will I be seeing you at my brother's wedding.
Anyway done alot of reflections today and also receive different kind of response from different group of people which kee me thinking about it. What do people really want in a Bf/GF? Is it possible to make a relationship everlasting just by truly loving each other? How about other factors like personalities? interest? environment? peer influence? other commitment? It just keep me thinking...
*Receive your message when I was watching the 9pm channel 8 show, even though its one and only short message of the day, its enough to make me tears when I read the message. You make me reflect even more, the time when I went to your house and take care of you because you are sick, it is the one and only time I manage to step inside your house because no one is around. It is definitely a short but very memorable memories.
Vomitted after eat bak chor mee for lunch today, the portion wasn't big at all but somehow I just feel like vomit everything out after the meal. Appetite affected? I do not know about it. Then while walking back home, I accidentally step into a drain and sprain my right ankle, yes thats right my already operated right ankle. Maybe because I was walking aimlessly that I do not realize the direction that I am heading towards. Eye infection needless to say, its because of the unhygiene practise I had, eye infection is already nothing new to me.
I spent the whole afternoon tidy up my room today since I do not know who to meet and where to go. Totally got no plans and no idea what I want for today. I guess my room now is pretty much ready for my brother's wedding next wednesday even though I simply just sweep up my room, keep plenty of things and throw away loads of trash only. I guess my room got alot of things until in the beginning I do not know where should I start with. Done alot of reflections today while tidying my room, still do not know why must we end up where we are now.
My family still doesnt know anything about us and my mum keep asking about you today, "like what time you coming for my brother's wedding", "never head out and meet your gf ar?" when I accompany her to eat dinner, she still ask me am I meeting you later. I don't know what to tell her other then saying you are busy today and I not sure what time you are coming for my brother wedding when I do not even know will I be seeing you at my brother's wedding.
Anyway done alot of reflections today and also receive different kind of response from different group of people which kee me thinking about it. What do people really want in a Bf/GF? Is it possible to make a relationship everlasting just by truly loving each other? How about other factors like personalities? interest? environment? peer influence? other commitment? It just keep me thinking...
*Receive your message when I was watching the 9pm channel 8 show, even though its one and only short message of the day, its enough to make me tears when I read the message. You make me reflect even more, the time when I went to your house and take care of you because you are sick, it is the one and only time I manage to step inside your house because no one is around. It is definitely a short but very memorable memories.
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Sleepless night...Is there really a bastard in me?
This post is going to be rather dragging and non-related to people who are not close to me, skip it if you dont feel like reading it.
I just had a very big quarrel with my gf and the topic of the quarrel has carried on ever since last month, then yesterday again the issue was raised and once again we quarrel until quite badly, now I n her is already sorta "break up". Haiz.. Is this ending that I bring myself into? I really do not know.
Perhaps it is just me and my character, the way I was brought up and the journey that I walk through make me who I are today, which I do not know whether it has benefit me or done more harm to me. People who know me well enough will know that actually I am a very outgoing and open minded person, be it the way I do things or the way I treat people. Even though I am attached, I always tell people that the last thing I want a friend to do is to distance himself or herself away from me just because I am attached. So everytime even though I am attached I still appear as though I am single and be close to many people, and sometime this actually backfire badly. I will slowly fall into a trap when the person actually show more affection to me then my gf. But most of the time, I will wake up eventually before anything really happen and someone get super hurt. Ever since my secondary school life, I will always have people that label me as being a flirt, a fishermen or a player. All those names has followed me ever since I was sec 4, is it because I am really such a person? Or is just because other people is unable to accept the thinking that I had and do not understand me well enough.
To me, a gf will definitely be much more important then a friend because a gf is someone that is very important to me in my life. even though friends is also important to me but somehow it is just at a different level between gf and friends. Its okie if my friend do not understand me, but I feel hurt when my own gf do not understand me well enough and I think I always high expectation from my gf in terms of understanding me, thats why I seldom have a gf that really last for very long. However, be it the friend is close to me or not close to me at all, I do not like it when my gf scold and insult my friend infront of me, same thing like I do not like my friend insult or scold my gf infront of me. It is just my way of showing mutual respect for both parties, I believe many of you can understand how does it feel when you are stucked in between friends and bf/gf. It is a damn sucky feeling when you just want to be a peacemaker between the two parties. It happen before in many of my relationships that I can easily name a few, Eunice and Chu ling, Yuanshan and Cherrie, Chenyin and Ngo Laam. No matter how NEUTRAL I am, one of the party will always say that I am siding the other side and the other side will also say the same thing to me. So I end up sandwiched between two parties and seriously is it too much or too unreasonable of me when I ask one party to stop scolding another party infront of me? I don't care whether you going to scold another person or what, what I ask for is just please don't do it infront of me cause I really do not know how to react to it.
I always act as a counsellor to many of my friends or campers that have relationship problems, being a big brother/sister/daddy/mummy to many of them by offering advice, a shoulder for them to lean on and a listening ears for their problems. But when it come to myself, I always find myself facing alot of problems in my own relationship, unable to manage it well for a long period of time. Sometime I also do not know what I really look for in a relationship, is it because I just cant settle down? I think that I am not good enough for my gf? Or I haven't found a correct person that can convinced me that its really the time for me settle down now. There can be hundred and one reasons around, but I really do not know which is the best reason that best describe me.
Last year, I found a girl that I really wanted to settle down with, someone that I can building a future together with. But end up what I get is being hurt badly and pick up far too many learning points from that relationship. I had never ever gone so crazy for a relationship before in my life, and the first time I put in so much effort into a relationship is the one that hurt me the most. Its not easy to pick myself up from that failed relationship, I been through loads of shit to get over it, really. After that failed relationship, I become a reserved person and proceed to all the new relationships with caution, preparing myself for the worst that could happen. This might seem unfair to my gf, but I really got no choice but proceed with caution after being hurt so badly before.
As for my "current gf", I and her also been through quite alot of difficulties then got together. Alot of people think that I and her wont last long because our thinking is very different, way much different from one another. She was still attached when I know her at the beginning of the year and I was sorta "attached" too. Thinking back, I could really never thank her enough for walking through the tough journey with me when I was facing the biggest shit of my life in the beginning of the year. She trusted me again and again, willing to solve my problems with me and help me with alot of dificulties. Even though our character is very much different from one another, we still tried building on a relationship together. It is really not easy with the kind of friends we each have and the different environment that we grow up from. Initially everything was fine, sometime we will have little argument here and there but it was never too serious, until last month when everything go haywire. I do not know where is the relationship is heading to and right now alot of things is running through my mind, I guess I really need time to sort it out.
*CY: I just open and watch the video that I made for you for your 21st birthday, thinking back few months ago and looking at where we at now, its way too much difference isnt it? When is the last time we really share the joy we had like before, the smile that we used to see on each other face? The patience, tolerance and able to compromise for one another? It just feel so different now, really...
I just had a very big quarrel with my gf and the topic of the quarrel has carried on ever since last month, then yesterday again the issue was raised and once again we quarrel until quite badly, now I n her is already sorta "break up". Haiz.. Is this ending that I bring myself into? I really do not know.
Perhaps it is just me and my character, the way I was brought up and the journey that I walk through make me who I are today, which I do not know whether it has benefit me or done more harm to me. People who know me well enough will know that actually I am a very outgoing and open minded person, be it the way I do things or the way I treat people. Even though I am attached, I always tell people that the last thing I want a friend to do is to distance himself or herself away from me just because I am attached. So everytime even though I am attached I still appear as though I am single and be close to many people, and sometime this actually backfire badly. I will slowly fall into a trap when the person actually show more affection to me then my gf. But most of the time, I will wake up eventually before anything really happen and someone get super hurt. Ever since my secondary school life, I will always have people that label me as being a flirt, a fishermen or a player. All those names has followed me ever since I was sec 4, is it because I am really such a person? Or is just because other people is unable to accept the thinking that I had and do not understand me well enough.
To me, a gf will definitely be much more important then a friend because a gf is someone that is very important to me in my life. even though friends is also important to me but somehow it is just at a different level between gf and friends. Its okie if my friend do not understand me, but I feel hurt when my own gf do not understand me well enough and I think I always high expectation from my gf in terms of understanding me, thats why I seldom have a gf that really last for very long. However, be it the friend is close to me or not close to me at all, I do not like it when my gf scold and insult my friend infront of me, same thing like I do not like my friend insult or scold my gf infront of me. It is just my way of showing mutual respect for both parties, I believe many of you can understand how does it feel when you are stucked in between friends and bf/gf. It is a damn sucky feeling when you just want to be a peacemaker between the two parties. It happen before in many of my relationships that I can easily name a few, Eunice and Chu ling, Yuanshan and Cherrie, Chenyin and Ngo Laam. No matter how NEUTRAL I am, one of the party will always say that I am siding the other side and the other side will also say the same thing to me. So I end up sandwiched between two parties and seriously is it too much or too unreasonable of me when I ask one party to stop scolding another party infront of me? I don't care whether you going to scold another person or what, what I ask for is just please don't do it infront of me cause I really do not know how to react to it.
I always act as a counsellor to many of my friends or campers that have relationship problems, being a big brother/sister/daddy/mummy to many of them by offering advice, a shoulder for them to lean on and a listening ears for their problems. But when it come to myself, I always find myself facing alot of problems in my own relationship, unable to manage it well for a long period of time. Sometime I also do not know what I really look for in a relationship, is it because I just cant settle down? I think that I am not good enough for my gf? Or I haven't found a correct person that can convinced me that its really the time for me settle down now. There can be hundred and one reasons around, but I really do not know which is the best reason that best describe me.
Last year, I found a girl that I really wanted to settle down with, someone that I can building a future together with. But end up what I get is being hurt badly and pick up far too many learning points from that relationship. I had never ever gone so crazy for a relationship before in my life, and the first time I put in so much effort into a relationship is the one that hurt me the most. Its not easy to pick myself up from that failed relationship, I been through loads of shit to get over it, really. After that failed relationship, I become a reserved person and proceed to all the new relationships with caution, preparing myself for the worst that could happen. This might seem unfair to my gf, but I really got no choice but proceed with caution after being hurt so badly before.
As for my "current gf", I and her also been through quite alot of difficulties then got together. Alot of people think that I and her wont last long because our thinking is very different, way much different from one another. She was still attached when I know her at the beginning of the year and I was sorta "attached" too. Thinking back, I could really never thank her enough for walking through the tough journey with me when I was facing the biggest shit of my life in the beginning of the year. She trusted me again and again, willing to solve my problems with me and help me with alot of dificulties. Even though our character is very much different from one another, we still tried building on a relationship together. It is really not easy with the kind of friends we each have and the different environment that we grow up from. Initially everything was fine, sometime we will have little argument here and there but it was never too serious, until last month when everything go haywire. I do not know where is the relationship is heading to and right now alot of things is running through my mind, I guess I really need time to sort it out.
*CY: I just open and watch the video that I made for you for your 21st birthday, thinking back few months ago and looking at where we at now, its way too much difference isnt it? When is the last time we really share the joy we had like before, the smile that we used to see on each other face? The patience, tolerance and able to compromise for one another? It just feel so different now, really...
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Photos from Xiaowei Chalet
Instructors Oei!
My buddy for 4years I think?
I miss doing camps with this group of guys, the memories is wonderful...
Why Andrew siam away from me eh? I look so friendly and cheerful lol..*I think in that chalet ar, the most suay one is Cyril. Just nice when we about to go home already, our dear Xiaowei did a merlion on him when he make a turn after washing hand!! I think that must be the most memorable experience for Cyril in that chalet.. haha
Birthday
This is going to be a short update before I return back to camp later. Recently alot of my friends is having their birthday celebration in the month of November and December. So far I had went for one and also missed out one. I went for Xiaowei chalet that was held at Aranda country club, the last time I went there I think it was during my primary school days, that show how long the club has exist ar.. haha..
Xiao wei Chalet was quite fun, again saw alot of instructors that is from my batch and also the batch slightly later then me, I will always remember the memories that all of us shared doing camps together, all the minor and major issues that occured during different camps. It was quite a pity that I gotta rush off that night as I got a overnight mahjong session waiting for me and I seriously regret going for that mahjong session, I lost freaking lot again. I only can blamed myself for not decisive and strong minded enough to skip the mahjong session that day. Oh well..I guess partly also lately for the past few months, I had been on the losing streak for mahjong. Keep losing non-stop and even if win, the winnings is only peanuts to the amount that I lost, I guess I really to do something to have a change of luck, any one can help me?
*Samantha, sorry that I unable to attend your chalet. That day I break camp then really quite tired, thus unable to make it for your chalet. So sorry for it.
Xiao wei Chalet was quite fun, again saw alot of instructors that is from my batch and also the batch slightly later then me, I will always remember the memories that all of us shared doing camps together, all the minor and major issues that occured during different camps. It was quite a pity that I gotta rush off that night as I got a overnight mahjong session waiting for me and I seriously regret going for that mahjong session, I lost freaking lot again. I only can blamed myself for not decisive and strong minded enough to skip the mahjong session that day. Oh well..I guess partly also lately for the past few months, I had been on the losing streak for mahjong. Keep losing non-stop and even if win, the winnings is only peanuts to the amount that I lost, I guess I really to do something to have a change of luck, any one can help me?
*Samantha, sorry that I unable to attend your chalet. That day I break camp then really quite tired, thus unable to make it for your chalet. So sorry for it.
Overdue photos..
Sagi House Captain!
Cam-whoring
When Kumar Kumar meet Starwberry*
Do we look fierce enough? haha!
Back to school.....
One of the fav photos that I like from the IJC camp
Ah *hua* and Ah *niang*
Cam-whoring again..
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