gonna be away for two days!

Woohoo!

I am not gonna be around to blog for the next two days because I will be busy for the next day with no internet access! Went back to camp today(Monday) to endorse my MC for another two weeks extension before I finally be good and return back to my unit. haha... So I guess in total I took 3month 2weeks MC after my ankle operation in February and I believe I had make use of the time as much as I can. Sunday went to play soccer with Renz and friend, but as I hasnt been exercizing for very long, I now suffering from the after effect of playing soccer like muscle ache etc.. Somemore I think I injure my ankle again when it hasnt really fully recovered, guess it gonna really take quite sometime for my ankle to heal completely for a person as active as me. LOL!

I realize alot of my friend is going Australia to study, especially those grad from RP, this make me ponder alot regarding about getting a degree. At the moment my plan is once I ORD, i planning to work for a year first to save some money then go SIM to further my studies. However, knowing my charcter I know that once I start working full-time for a period, I will be so not motivated to get back to studies again. This is why I do not whether I should try reserved a seat now at SIM or only start to plan two years later. hmm...

Dear: Thank you for accompany me all the way to town for PCB, then sit back bus all the way to Choa Chu Kang and then to my camp, I appreciate it alot alot. Sorry I never listen to you and end up injure myself during sunday soccer, but don't get too worried over my injuries ya coz your bf is strong and so gonna be alright! Take care for the next two days as I will not be around but I will try to call you at night and also reply to your msgs as much as I can ya. :)



Tekong photo, quite long ago

Old photo, hardwork of me, david, shi hui and amelia

Sorry

Aloha!
Lazy to blog for the past few days and here I am back to blogging again! For the past few days that I didn't, quite a number of things happen between me and my girl. On thurs, we had a slight quarrel over some small issue, I admit its partly my fault for being over-sensitive on that day I guess? Supposingly I am suppose to return back to my camp on the coming monday and I really hate the thoughts of it after being MC for 3month! The thoughts of returning back to camp, unable to book out everyday and limited time to spend with friends and girlfriend is seriously affecting my mood ever since Wed.

Then somehow on thurs everything like just snapped my mind! Being frustrated with my girlfriend for not replying to my sms without saying anything untill I call her at night when she told me forget to reply my sms, I become totally pissed and started a small quarrel with her that night. Sorry dear, I admit partly its really my fault for being so hot temper that day because my mood is really quite that period and also that incident is not the first time already, thats why I was so pissed that day, I hope you understand. Sorry to make you cried over it, I feel bad about it, really.

On friday night, Supposingly to be pleasant night with my girlfriend bringing her to eat the bai meehoon that we have been craving for quite sometime, but end up we didn't enjoy our dinner because we quarrel once again when we were at SSC talking on the topic of "clubbing". Alot of things was said, being pleasant or unpleasant to the ears which end up both of us hurting each other. This is something which both of us didn't want to and luckily we managed to solve it in the end even though it take quite some time.

Dear: I had told you before and I still going to say it again, the last thing that I ever want to see or do, is to see you cry and hurting you. This will not be what I want and I will try my best to achieve that, perhaps I didn't let you understand me very well before we got together and there is a big difference in the way we look at things. But I hope that no matter what, we can work together and solve our differences, the past two days of quarreling is really bad and both of us can feel it ourself, things will get better for us alright. :)

My style, my way!

Ring ring, ring ring!

K: Hello!! good morning, are you doing your report?
CY: hmm...erm...i fall back to sleep.. hehe

K: ermz... -_-" I stil thought you so good able to wake up ar
CY: I fall back to sleep after msging you just now.

K: okok, time to wake up!!! don't sleep anymore already.
CY: okok, I will wake up now...

K: hmm..hey dear, you know something?? Your house recently hired a delivery men! And the delivery men actually is waiting for you to collect breakfast at life area here.
CY: *stone for period* HUH! oh...you are at the lift?! I am still lying on my bed lol..

K: The delivery is here to deliver ai xin breakfast, specially delivered and waiting for you.
CY: okok, but erm...can i go brush teeth first? haha...

*thats the end of the short story, abit bo liao to others but well..as long as the person like can already, haha..


Last time in the past I always got friend talking about "never treat your boyfriend or girlfriend too good at the beginning of the relationship, this is to prevent your boyfriend or girlfriend taking you for granted in the long run during the relationship. Must learn to know when to give and when to take" But well...although sometime I do agree on that point alittle but somehow or rather I always didnt follow that theory among all my relationship in the past and present. When I am attached to someone I love, I think that it is right for me to treat that person as good as I can and treating her very well. What for having a girlfriend but need to hold back alittle in the way of treating her, thats is so not me. I believe in giving the best that I could to my girlfriend, always shower her with love and concern. Even though my temper might be bad at times, but I am a person that really can get over it easily especially when having quarrel with my girlfriend.

I guess I am finally going back to camp in less then a week time as I don't think my MC could be extend any further when I go back for my medical appt this Friday. Which mean that this is the final week that I could spent more time with my girlfriend and friends, doing whatever things that I always wanted to do. Its kinda sad because my girlfriend itself is very busy with her school stuff especially this week, my buddy is at work almost everyday due to stupid H1N1 virus, then the instructors side also never call me for outing anymore, everyone just simply got their own stuff to busy with and I am so bored with nothing to do at all. Since this is the final week that I can spent more time with my girl, I will definitely aim to try spending more time with her and make full use of all the remaining time I have.. :)

Tekong days!

Another NP camp photo

King Kong oei!

I keep having problems when uploading photos of me and my girlfriend. No idea why also.. hmm..

Happy one month!

Hello! Been lazy for the past few days and catching up on my dragonball GT on youtube, therefore didnt blog for few days... But never mind, i finally finish watching all the episode of dragonball GT and now is back to boredom at night again... :(

hmm...today 17th May is the one month anniversary of me and chenyin! Time really flies and unknowingly one month just passed like that! Been out the whole day with her since 12+ in the noon and we went to two area, Yishun and Tampiness. Went to eat Teppanyaki at Yishun for lunch since its been ages I last ate Teppanyaki and my dear girl don't know what is Teppanyaki. Come to think about it, there's a period I even ate that once every week and it carry on for one month I think? After that went to buy my contacts and off we go Tampiness! Initially plan was to catch the 2pm movie "ramen girl" over there, walk around after movie and have Ajisen ramen for dinner. But due to abit of delay here and there, we couldnt make it for 2pm movie, thus we end up spending the whole day walking around all 3 shopping center in Tampiness.

Things that we consume at tampiness alone includes
- takopaichi
- mr bean pancake and soya milk
- ajisen ramen
- soft shell crab
- crab croquette
- fried fish
- ice lemon tea
- ice yuanyang

I guess thats all for what we consume at Tampiness, its kinda loads of food and drinks I think? LoL....

After dinner decided to head back to nua at my house for awhile and I sent her home after that! Its kinda a pity that I forget to bring out camera today, if not can take loads of photo for memories. But well...never mind, there's always next time!

*Dear, The past one month you have been through quite a number of problems with me and see me through my happy and bad days for the past one month, its been sometime since I last had this feeling and I really enjoying every minute of your accompany. Sorry for making you feeling insecure at times, I don't really wish to see you always get so worried also. The foundation that we are building for the past month is definitely going very strong at the moment and I believe it will last me till very long. I can see the effort that you put into the relationship, I really appreciate alot. Must have more faith in yourself and me alright, we will work hand in hand together and keep building a strong foundation together. Hope you really enjoyed yourself today dear, I love you.

I cant really remember which camp is this!

Cute right?

Trying!

Hello! Actually I suppose to be sleeping now, but somehow I been tossing around on the bed for the past 2 to 3hr and I still can't get to sleep!! I guess I really just have to find things to do to tire myself every night, if not really very hard to sleep early. Since I promise my girl that I am going to change my unhealthy lifestyle, I will definitely try to do it. Hopefully this won't take too long and please give me some time to change ok dear?

I finally got a proper working TV in my room now, courtesy of my second brother! My old tv in my room has been giving me problem ever since last few months back, it will auto shutdown while watching or can't even on at all! Many times when my friend was watching dvd in my room, the TV will not give me any face and just shut down suddenly! End up I become so pai seh infront my friend or girlfriend.. ZzzzZZ (-_-")

Met my girl yesterday to collect something from her and I seriously want to thank her for everything she done for me and everything that she help me with. Dear, thank you for willing to face the problems with me and helping me to solve it, its not gonna be a easy path for us for the next two year or so, I am glad that we will work hand in hand together to face it as a couple ya, thank you for everything. You are seriously the motivation in my life now in everything I do, because of you I will try my best to change and not disappoint you again. :)

*I am freaking hungry now! Got cravings for mee goreng with chicken wing and Sembawang Bai bee hoon... :(

Quit for good?

Today was pretty much a slacking day for me, when I wake up its like already 6pm?! I do wake up between interval during the daytime but by 6pm, I am finally awake and doing my stuff. My body biological clock is totally screw up and I think I only can blame myself for it I guess. Nothing much happen today, bought dinner for my parents and went for night run at 2-3am as usual.

Didnt get to meet up with my girl today as her lesson ended very late on every monday. The following weeks I guess we going to meet even lesser due to some reason, still trying to adapt to it thou. Clear abit of my debt today and yes I am now officially broke again, even thou I just took my pay like few days back, after clearing all my debts I am down to penniless again... -_-
Currently my life, other then spending time with my gf, I really don't have anything else to do anymore. With no money, there's nothing much I can do at the moment plus I can't find a proper temp job now, so if my gf never meet me I am just nua-ing everyday. I seriously miss doing camps, last year during this period I was happily doing camp week in week out, but now? haiz.. face with loads of debts everyday and being so stressout every single night. This is really heading nowhere and I don't know how long I can last taking all these stress.

I going to quit soccer gambling for good if everything able to settle nicely and swee swee. It has bring me enough trouble and really loads of trouble I must admit. Like what I told my gf, I am really going to quit gambling for good if I can really solve my current problem. I have let her down too many times and even I is feeling guilty now. Sorry dear.

A camp that I first cried for one of the activity

The first girl school camp that I did!

Terrible kids but wonderful accomodation.. :)

A camp with 500 kuku... -_-"

incredible me?

I am so amazed with myself! I can't believe I actually so 'on' until I walk home from Kranji Mrt station to Sembawang all alone, it took me a long freaking two hours to finally reach my house! By the time I reach back home, i already perspire like a dog and leg aching. Guess I am really turning old, just like what my gf been telling me. :(

I seriously miss riding my bike, having my own personal transport. I hate the feeling of catching the last train/bus, rushing here and there because I do not have my own personal transport! Its kinda a sucky feeling you know, somemore I been riding for like past 2-3 years? Catching last bus and mrt home everytime makes me feel so like secondary school days. haiz..but what can I do?

At the moment I am already down with so many debts. needless to say owning a bike at the moment, it will just add on to my current expenses and god knows how can I afford to have it. Went for Mojo birthday dinner on Saturday at Cathay Aston, follow by going over to Marina Square to find Andrew and cliques. Initially don't want to join neither group for dinner because thinking that eating with my gf somewhere will save money, after that zephyr told me Aston ain't too expensive afterall. After thinking for a while I decided to go for the dinner but well...guess what?! I spent nearly$30 on that meal ($23 on meal +$7 for present), end up spending unnecessary money again.. Zzzz



Candid shot -_-"

All the weirdos!

I am back to blogging!

Hello BLOGSPOT!

Its been ages since I last blog, can link back to about 3 to 4 years ago I think? Actually wanted to start blogging at the end of last year when my life is going through a tremendous changes, but I always did not carry out in the end as I am really too lazy and like to procrastinate alot. Then since I am facing insomnia right at the moment, I might as well just kickstart having a blog again.

Actually my insomnia started since few weeks back, every night before I sleep random thoughts just come to me to prevent me from sleeping peacefully. Currently I am having debts, and its really loads and loads of debts. It all started at the end of last year when my life is going really really down after ys broke off with me. I start to indulge in drinking, soccer betting and spending money aimlessly. Slowly whatever income that I earn last year from doing camps is depleted and more problems start to come. Family got money problems, I met with a motor accident and end up gotta scrapped my bike without taking any money back.

Soon I start to borrow money from friends to pay off the bills, expenses and family debts. And now, I find myself with loads of debts that I ownself do not know how am I going to clear it, I cant even face alot of my friends now, seriously. There is alot of my friend talking behind me at the moment, saying I owe money for so long and never return etc, haiz.. The problem is not I don't want to return, I just dont know where to find the money to return them at all. My monthly pay is only merely $500? Everytime when I manage to clear a debt from one friend, another friend will start to chase me for money. The cycle just go none-stop till I can really clear all the debts which can take like one year or even two year?

I must admit its my fault for making empty promises to them like I will return within a period of time and I exceed that period like way too over, so I dont blame them keep asking me for the money. And thats the reason why I been having insomnia for the past few weeks, every night keep thinking about the money problem till I cant sleep at all, only manage to fall aslp in the morning when my brain juice is really being squeezed out totally.

At the moment, I just hope I can come across a person that will be nice enough to loan me a large sum of money to let me clear all my debts straight away and I can pay that person bit by bit every month. It will be much better for me to get chased down by different friend every day, really. If I can across such a person, I really don't mind quit all my bad habbits like clubbing, drinking and gambling all these, it has cause me enough troubles for many years and the money i spent on it is already cant calculate anymore.

HELP!!!!!!!!