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Hi all, i think my blog is super rusty already, its been ages since I last update my blog, I wanted to blog this post last weekend but has been procrastinating for very long.

*this post is not suit for people that do not like to read wordy stuff*

It has been one week ever since you broke up with me, I wonder how have you been for the past one week. I know you had already deleted your blog and I been trying to find if you have any new blog, till now got not much discovery. I have a kind of deja vu feeling like you and max that time, you also change your blog add after you broke up with him.

Anyway, after yuan shan i thought that i will never cried for another girl again, but apparently I was wrong totally. I went clubbing with potato they all and halfway through clubbing when I check my fb status you already delete off the relationship, somehow my heart just sank totally and cried. No doubt throughout the week I been thinking of you, be it doing camps and or anywhere that I go, it has memories of you and me, afterall we have been together for like 1 year 5month? Though I am able to carry on with my job and hanging around with my friends/instructor etc, but somehow I will think of you at certain period of time. Its like I am too used to have you eating our favourite food together, "sambal lala, hokkien mee, tom yung soup etc.." Maybe I have been over-rely on you too much, its like everytime when something happen to me or i needed help, you are always around to help me and also assist me to get out of some difficult situation.

I am sorry to disappoint you so much girl, I know alot of promises i made to you just end become lots of empty promises. And this is why also i know that i don't have the right to ask you back cause i know i might even end up hurting you further. Sorry to break your heart over and over again, I really don't mean it and sometime I just give in to temptations easily and then after that realize my mistakes. Thou our family background and culture is so different, we did managed to last more then a year and shared many sad/happy memories.

Alot of people been asking me what happened to us and I also don't know how to answer them, I must admit you are really a nice girl, a girl that can make a good wife in future But right now, it appears that I am really not good enough for you cause I don't really have a proper job now and also I strongly believe uni got much more better guys then me out there. I am really sorry to break your heart and disappoint you so many time, i never meant to end our relationship that way, really.

Right now, i just hope you are able to cope well with your studies and hope you able to find a guy that treat you much better then i do, i guess that is not a difficult tasks as you always tell me your school got many choices of guys. Definitely in terms of future, i believe a guy with a degree from uni will be much better then me that only got a diploma from poly.

I really want to say thank you for all the memories and journey that we been through alot, definitely you make me a better person then before and I can't stop feeling super appreciated of all the troubles that you help me to solved. You step into my life at the lowest point of my life, thank you for picking me up and trust me, you will always be part of my journey in life.

Last but not least, be it as a friend or what, i hope to see you smile soon... Don't forget you still have a pair of lovely "killer dimples", its very hard to find another girl that has the dimple as you. And once again, sorry for breaking your heart, take care.