Sentosa + Steamboat

Busy Weekend

This past one week is a very very tiring week for me. Got outfield on Monday, SOC test and Guard duty on Wed, then outfield again on thurs Fri morning got morning PT. Sat whole day doing camp HA event, end up now totally shag out!

Yesterday event wa quite a very big scale event, I think got about 40 over instructors being involved in it. Alot of mis-planning and miscommunications, then end up instructors and chief they all having internal conflicts within themselve. Haiz, I was actually quite looking forward that you got do yesterday event, because two or three weeks never see you already, so thinking that you might do this event and hope I got a chance to see you. But well..once again, yu wasn't there. I guess every week I am just hoping for blank wishes.

Christmas is getting nearer and I am stuck at where I was two months back. Listening to the song "that thing you do", I realize the lyrics very match how I really feel now. "I tried and tried to let you go, but it just so hard to do". Hopefully there will be a chance of seeing you at next instructors gathering bah.

Cold Chilling Sunday

Weather has been really bad recently.. Rain, sunny, rain, sunny.. Guess my mood every weekend is just like the weather too ---> up, down, up, down.. My "project has been working on it ever since late September, till now so much still remain incomplete. The motivation for the project just come and go, somehow weird feeling but ya, hopefully it can be done before Christmas.

Many times when we contact friend that hasnt seen each other for long, we will always say something like catch up soon, maybe for a movie or for meal.. But when come to every weekend, the end results is always very big difference, I really wonder why...

This coming few weeks, weekend should be having the same kind of mentality I guess? Phy is having her, instructors are mostly busy with their respective stuff, mahjong also like not that interesting anymore. Am I able to take this for long?

Its been sometime since I last blog, wanted to post a new blog post before my operation but once again my laptop died on me, thus nowusing my brother's laptop to update my blog.

Just came back from my operation at NUH yesterday and yes! I am officially handicapped now.. Ah lam or ah huat can not longer run or walk normally for the next two to six month, haiz.. Till now I still do not know whether I make the correct decision of going for my operation at this period of time, being a burden to everyone around me, my friend, my family and my loved one.

When I was in hospital, I think about alot of things, people that really care for me and people that don't really give a shit about me. Alot of my friends will still at least sms, sent wishes all these before and after my operation, checking on how am I etc.. How bout you? I had stop msging you for one or so until last sunday I message you for inform you the dinner that I organized before my operation. Perhaps you are too attached to him that whatever things that happen to me now doesnt concern you at all. Is that what you mean by still able to remain as friend even after beak up? I believe if it was a outside friend of yours that is going for operation soon, you will at least sent some wishes to him or her for the operation.

Today Minsi come acc for the whole day, then Ren Xiaowei and Jer visited me today too. All of them bought me food and snacks, I feel so touched and really appreciate it. Perhaps like what everyone say, this is just a small operation for me as I am still alive and kicking, but simple operation like this can really make me feel who are the true friends, loved ones and people who really care about me. Thank you people. I will try my best to lead a new life, really trying.